tell me why.

chinese tuition is getting interesting. very interesting. wrote a compo 2dae. yea, chinese. big accomplishment -.- hehee.

walking is so good. no, not walk as in 1 bustop nia. walk as in like... frm home to sch? ahh. that kind of walks. clears the mind. it's like some counselling session while keeping fit. =)

my dreams are getting weird. he was in my dream. for some reason. *shrug* rmbing ur dreams are hard. hmm. oh yea. and there was this kissing part (im not sure with who though) and.. i dunno, it seemed troubled.

=/

stupid dad. why cant i be given privacy like any other person? why cant i do my fucking work in my room? why must i show him what i have to do? dun he fucking understand that i cant do anything when i have someone staring at the back of my head? plus, he has the fucking tv on. how to work lidat. whenever i need to do KC or stuff on the com, he'd be like," HOW COME I ASK U TO DO WORK U ALWAYS HAVE STUFF ON THE COM TO DO?!" then kena whacked. fuck. dun u fucking understand that im given marks for schwk, and not ur stupid fucking wksheets?

fine. blame me for that megre 1.5 GPA in term 2. it's all ur fault, and there's no denial in that.

big deal that u're my dad. big deal that i leech off you. tua bai arh?

im tired of all this shit. basically, everything right now is fine except for my family members, inner circle or extended.

big deal that my freaking jeans is abit the loose, so have a little gap btwn the top and my back right? doesnt mean that u have to stick ur fucking dirty fingers into the gap and laugh abt it? big deal that im fat? big deal that i have bigger boobs than you? big deal that im dark skinned? you may have been the one looking aft me since young, but that doesnt give u the liberty to act as if im some fish in the wet market, letting you test every single point, laugh abt my flaws and then start whining abt ur prob?

big deal that i do have guys calling my number even though i was in a gals sch then?

oh yea. im not refering to my dad here.

i feel so.. caged la. i feel like crying. that must mean smth.

forget it. since they are my elders and i can do nuthin to chnge them.. i might just consider the very options they told me never to do.
-move into a dorm in uni. (smth abt sex. but whatever.)
-migrate
-the bo chap attitude i've adopted since young (and it's all their fault.) but was ORDERED to drop it
-do stuff for money.

how much does the dorm thing cost?

nvm.

if you could only have 1 choice, would you choose to be a millionare, or to be with ur true love?

guess what? i chose millionare.

call me superficial if you want. but to me, true love is dead and gone.

btw, it's not pms that im having a bitch fit.

nvm.

sayonara dearies.