I HATE THIS.

i hate the way my mum treats me in public in frnt of strangers who are lyk 3 decades older than me. i hate the way she tells them im in the farking IP programme and they go lyk," wahhh! so clever arh!!!" n start asking all sorts of qns. ESP WHEN THE PERSON HAS HIS/HER OTHER HALF. they would be lyk," ehh, that girl arh, in IP lehh! so clever!" n start blabbing. i know itz a compliment, that im smart n all, but i hate pple who state the obvious. jkjk. but still. i feel damn out, just lyk a chicken on display. everyone's toking abt u, scrutinizing u... nvm. can u juz imagine the pressure to then succeed? i mean, if u think urself pushing as hard as possible is not bad enuff, u need the spotlight. BIG PROBLEM. they watch u fall, if u do. then coz of their age and the nagging thing is installed into them, they nag at u. gahhh. i'd rather just tell them im in sec 3 tkgs where i would be having a much happier life. n shut the hell outta them. but still, if this little piece of info will make my mum seem damn seh, to have a daughter in IP. gahhh. more lyk having a stupid daughter to get into IP n let all the aunties look at u lyk a fish in a wet market: whether good anot.

I hate the way they think im some desperate little girl looking 4 a husband. they try n intro their sons 2 me. lyk," u born in 1991 arh? my son oso lehh!!" i'll b lyk uhhhhh.... no thnx. then my mum, as usual, will try 2 make me seem lyk damn seh n say," no lahh. she have le." lyk fark. not that im desperate to know their sons or wad, but still. that is a LIE. a farking big lie which u told in frnt of my face. do u even know who my darling is? NO. face it. u're still stuck in the world when i was only in p6, a very innocent little froob who told her mum abt everything that happened in sch, which guy is cute, which guy i lyk... leaving that fucking diary arnd, giving her a chance to read it with my bro, TELLING EVERYONE EVERY PIECE OF JUICY THING INSIDE.. they dun have to know wadz going on in my life, u noe. but the good thing is, since she's still stuck in my p6 world, i move on wifout her knowing the rest. very good. she DOESNT HAVE TO KNOW. gahh. i prefer to have privacy wif my parents, n publicity wif my frens=)

GwARRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I HATE HER HYPOCRACY. in frnt of pple she call me dear, darling, blah blah blah lyk we damn close lidat. then went they are gone, she starts nagging. lyk hello? i noe itz a fucking show u're putting up, but still. stop it. if u're mean, be mean all the way. i dun mind, but dun be a 2 faced bitch.

my dad is seriously getting on my nerves. he hits me 4 every single thing that i do. my bro as well too though. haha. lyk, if i wanna brush my teeth later, he could just say, okae, nvm. juz go brush it later. but NO. he goes up to u, hits u, n say GO BRUSH UR TEETH NOW. FUCKER. such a fucking trival matter, n u wanna juz blow it up. (no sick thoughts now, pls) he uses it as some kinda threat thing. if u dun wan smth, he'll make u wan it by threatening u by hiting u. fucker. if i get a qn wrong, he'd b lyk *whacks* wadz wrong wif this qn? but lyk if u get it wrong means u dun understand the qn ryte? so instd of juz explaining the fucking prob to me, u think that pain can actually bring the fucking ans to my head. riiiiiight. im sure it will. then act lyk so damn seh lidat. outside, smile smile lidat. so nice then got sooper big idiot smile plastered on the face. aft that tok 2 other pple oso smile smile de. then tok 2 us he's lyk *shout shout shout*. oh wait. he never toks to us. he ORDERS us arnd. hah. u r juz too suspicious of me, arent u?

gahh. so much 4 my sad life. n the ones causing it are my dysfunctional parents.

can u believe i juz cried while doing this post?