the mind is...
hm. always always always at this time of the hols. ALWAYS.
the time of the hols. in the middle of them. where there is no much deadlines for us to reach, and therefore the pace of life slows down by half.
why does it always happen at this time?
the things arnd u slow down, but ur mind is still moving fast. so, it RUNS WILD. seriously. u get a weird empty feeling. u feel... as if there's smth inside ur head. not sure about the voices part, but still. cracking up.
the thoughts u have are... well... SCARY. i mean it. scary. imagine. u're paranoid abt every single thing happening. paranoid abt the 'bacteria' on ur hands. u're afraid that u might get some really weird, uncurable virus frm the person u bumped into on the bus. u're afraid that stepping on something barefoot might give u worms. u think u have cancer when a part of u hurts.
in short, anything u do which has smth to do with interacting with a foreign object might bring harm to ur body. not physically, but internally. with those microscopic living organisms which may easily destruct a body a few million times bigger than itself when in large numbers, it's hard not to worry. its common.
until u bring it to another level. u avoid human to human contact. u wash ur hands for no reason at a very frequent basis. very frequent.
aniwae, it was worse last yr. read the stupid science bk and cancers n stuff. the bk had this part which said abt pple at which age could get wad stuff. so somehow.. i tot i got.. well, the big C. haha. stupid, i noe. it was frm reading that bk during the hols.
complained whenever it hurt. so much i went to the doctors. actually, looking back, it was more of training too much, too hard, esp gym. so the doctor checked, it was NOTHING. *relief* yea. of coz went wif my mum la. haha. the doctor said, if i went any further, she would refer me to IMH. serious. gave me some stuff to calm the mind. (it was slping pills la, how smart. give some cheem cheem name to it. haha.)
so yea. back to the point. hols are DESTRUCTIVE. when long. haha. too much rest plays tricks on the mind.
the empty feeling's back. n i found the cure. RECITE BIO. XD really. it works. HAAAHAAA.
oh yes, im all right. physically and mentally. really. =D
the time of the hols. in the middle of them. where there is no much deadlines for us to reach, and therefore the pace of life slows down by half.
why does it always happen at this time?
the things arnd u slow down, but ur mind is still moving fast. so, it RUNS WILD. seriously. u get a weird empty feeling. u feel... as if there's smth inside ur head. not sure about the voices part, but still. cracking up.
the thoughts u have are... well... SCARY. i mean it. scary. imagine. u're paranoid abt every single thing happening. paranoid abt the 'bacteria' on ur hands. u're afraid that u might get some really weird, uncurable virus frm the person u bumped into on the bus. u're afraid that stepping on something barefoot might give u worms. u think u have cancer when a part of u hurts.
in short, anything u do which has smth to do with interacting with a foreign object might bring harm to ur body. not physically, but internally. with those microscopic living organisms which may easily destruct a body a few million times bigger than itself when in large numbers, it's hard not to worry. its common.
until u bring it to another level. u avoid human to human contact. u wash ur hands for no reason at a very frequent basis. very frequent.
aniwae, it was worse last yr. read the stupid science bk and cancers n stuff. the bk had this part which said abt pple at which age could get wad stuff. so somehow.. i tot i got.. well, the big C. haha. stupid, i noe. it was frm reading that bk during the hols.
complained whenever it hurt. so much i went to the doctors. actually, looking back, it was more of training too much, too hard, esp gym. so the doctor checked, it was NOTHING. *relief* yea. of coz went wif my mum la. haha. the doctor said, if i went any further, she would refer me to IMH. serious. gave me some stuff to calm the mind. (it was slping pills la, how smart. give some cheem cheem name to it. haha.)
so yea. back to the point. hols are DESTRUCTIVE. when long. haha. too much rest plays tricks on the mind.
the empty feeling's back. n i found the cure. RECITE BIO. XD really. it works. HAAAHAAA.
oh yes, im all right. physically and mentally. really. =D
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