Reassurances from you are needed, though absent, as usual.

I feel so fucking insecure.

Maybe sometimes i just want someone to be there to hold me and tell me everything's alright and mean it.

google translators really ROCK.

ok, so i translated this:

"im in love with a pervert"

from english to russian. which is:

"Я полюбила извращения "

if you'd translate it back to eng, you'll get:

"i love perversion."

WOW.

i feel horrible.

chem isnt helping me either.

go to hell.

Maybe it's just one of those days where i miss you all over again.

Because one of the resolutions this year is to be nice,

"Thou shalt not flame anyone. with name included."

And the old one,

"Thou shalt not fight."

MUST. CONTROL.

Im seriously pissed with you, bitch. I thought i'd face you with an open mind despite opinions against your favor, but you've proved them right. I've tried to be nice, censoring things that were nearly hurled out at you which could be rather emotionally insensitive though you were really asking for it. I was actually having problems with my anger at you, a thing quite difficult to come by these days. Good luck, I'll make sure you'll regret it if there's another incident.

There.

And i've nicely left out the fucks in those sentences. Appreciate it.

You freaking horny ass. (:

=D

4 games today, and it ROCKED =DDDDD

apart from the bleeding little finger and hurting knees, the last game was rather anyhow played coz of the knees. dammit. nxt time must get both skin colour, not white. lol. so it wont be so obvious that i cant bear to wear it.

av 154. TRALALALLA~ i love it i love it =D though must be better in b divs, after all it's just 3 wks away.

ok maybe it was because we were bowling on the cursed lanes of 23 and 24 beside VJ male team 1 and i had quality eye candy tralalala~ ok nvm.

steady strong arms. X)

congratulations to rodney for winning 10 bucks (=.=). lol. it was fun screaming. and billy!! the great one in a div and no more ponning trg! XD

b div! in 3 wks! ahhhh!!! *pressure* chem and physics test! in 3 wks! ahhh!!! *pressurepressurepressure*

STRESSS AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

but it was you i was thinking of X)

Do You Remember?

Do you remember the first time you saw him,
when, at the very sight of him, you finally knew?
That this was the boy you wished for more than anything,
but deep down you felt you hopes would never come true?

Do you remember the days and weeks you spent thinking of him,
Imagining how you would spend you life with him?
Wondering if life would ever be lived with him?
Pondering how life could possibly be lived without him?

Do you remember when you first noticed the pure beauty of him,
When the slightest glance towards him stopped you in your tracks?
When his very presence next to you sent your heart racing,
When you thought his appearance had nothing, nothing at all, that lacks?

Do you remember how you obsessed over him,
How images of him popped up with every blink?
How you found yourself unable to concentrate on what matters,
How you grip on reality seemed to finally shrink?

Do you remember how you tried to live without him.
How you wasted your time at home sulking and crying?
How the slightest whim of him precluded your heart from beating,
How you thought being without him was a fate worse than dying?

Do you remember how he haunted you,
How, no matter what, his image wouldn't escape your head?
How those terrible ideas of someone else taking him filled you,
How you wished he loved you instead?

Do you remember how you wished to be him,
When love turned into jealousy and hate?
When you cursed his name for ruining your life,
When you no longer thought of him great?

Do you remember how long you kept in your feelings for him,
not telling anyone what you felt, thought, or knew?
Hiding behind a smile or laugh, and never a frown,
never letting true emotions seep through?

Do you remember how you thought you were over him,
how you kept telling yourself you'd be okay?
How you thought you could survive without him,
how he still ended up ruining your day?

Do you remember when he finally said his first words to you,
When your face scrunched up and you had a loss of breath?
When you tried to respond, but out came only a squeak,
when you thought this would be your untimely death?

Do you remember when you finally told someone,
That you realized what you wanted more than anything?
How words let loose and feelings ran rampant,
How you explained you so adored this singular being?

Do you remember when you cried with your friends that day,
When you shared stories, laughs, and tears?
When you felt comfortable admitting your love,
When you almost let go of your fears?

Do you remember how you actually thought of telling him,
How a powerful force told you it was now time?
How you wondered about it for days on end,
How you hoped this would be your moment to shine?

Do you remember when your mind was made up,
When you finally decided to set your heart free?
When you strongly felt that this was the right choice,
When you implored God to let this be your moment of glee?

Do you remember how you told him,
When you approached him, hoping this was to-be?
When you searched and searched, finally catching him,
When you told yourself, "he's only for me"?

Do you remember that final breath you took,
When you felt the tension could be cut by a knife?
When you stood there, bewildered by his beauty,
When you knew this moment would change your life?

Do you remember the special moment when you spoke,
When the first coherent words escaped your lips?
When his previous thoughts of you ceased to be,
When you waved goodbye to the shore, setting sail to your ships? **

Do you remember the look on his face,
The feeling of panic that suddenly swept over you?
The image of shock, joy, and exasperation which covered him,
The strong hope of being with him that grew?

Do you remember the smile that spread across his face,
The smile that sent shivers down your spine?
The smile that made you realize your dream has come true,
The smile so powerful, you thought it divine?

Do you remember the words he spoke,
Those magical, amazing words?
Those words that sent your heart aflutter,
Those words that made you fly like the birds?

Do you remember the final gesture,
The hand he outstretched, waiting to be taken?
The lips he secured around your own,
The life he sent through you to awaken?

Do you remember the feeling of pure happiness you felt,
When you realized your dream had come true?
When you knew nothing could ever take you down,
When you felt that never again, would you feel blue?

Do you remember the sweat that ran down your face,
The shivers that never ended their ceaseless creeping?
The jolt your body gave off when you sat up,
The fact you realized you were only dreaming?

Do you remember? The feelings still remain.

by ~Imortal36 on deviantART

why, it's so true.

'cause im such a mean bitch.

i dont deserve the love you give me.

and you(the other one) is worse than what i think i am.

te odeo, interfice te cochleare. (ask me for the meaning if you dont get it)

just got back from the NUS bowling thing. lol. so paiseh, the registration part. omg la. coz we were the only team that havent registered yet, they announced it. and everyone turned to look at us. even better, i was the only one wearing the tj shirt =.= ahhh! nat's face was like, RED. HAHAHA. haiyer. so paiseh. XD

me and serene are rather destructive. 1st the board/poster/lighting thing, then the console. HAHA.

anyway, tml must rmb to bring BOTH knee guards. goodness la, before the thing start my right knee started hurting like rubbish, and i can't do the finishing position without the knee guard on my left. so i nearly collasped on the power step. boo. couldn't sit in properly. then dunno who, jx or was it nickybutt(?) or marcus (?), said the guard was for style -.- assss.

haiyar. havent become mother become amah alr. =( (where's my laogong? XDDDDD)

yeah and the games were horrible. though the last two werent too bad, but it totally missed the expectations. tml must play better than yesterday! and i think my release for the last two games were soo much better^^ yay!

the guys one was rather hilarious. billy wanted to be the great one.. heh. and rodney's thumb was BLEEDING :O and his guard is sexayy man. black, leather, totally woohoo~! qinghui's new name is.. xiaoqing or xiaohui. gay! woohoo~

jx's lane was rather funny. coz they are rather slow, and the sa people were rather fast and impatient..

tj bowler: (throws 1st ball)
sa guys: strike, strike, strike...
tj bowler: (doesnt strike)
sa guys: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I WANT TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA.

thumb+ice is supposed to be good, i shall go do that now. yay.

the heart's for you! =D

ok yes.

now that i feel less random, i think i'll start thanking people.

THANKEW valerie and her daddy for sending me to bedok after trg. i'd have died on the way if you guys didnt. ^^*hug*

THANKEW serene (kwok) for making my night last night. haha. *hug* (again) you're the best junior i've ever had too! (:

THANKEW the people (shrompy trish rach sonia denise etcetc) i hang around most in school for being there ^^ (so many la, how to name.-.-)

and you know, the usuals.

argh, i cant resist this.

I HATE YOU, BITCH. and if you were in my position you'd think you're a bitch too.

so much for the positive post.

last day of term 1 ^^ as in, normal lessons. haha. so happy.

PE was gay. capt's ball, and it was so bad i decided to sit out on the last one. and my knee's killing me.

trg was WHEE. even though i had this super irritating headache, the games werent too bad. ^^ av 149. 149 half to be exact. must bowl better tml! and sunday!

if i sound high here, pls note that it's the exact opp in reality right now.

stupid headache.

gawd. im going mad.

IM HIGH IM HAPPY IM WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah, rodney's pic.



there. ENJOY!

gawd. im going mad.




IM HIGH IM HAPPY IM WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!


oh yeah, rodney's pic.





there. ENJOY!

YESTERDAY WAS SO FUN HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA (((((:

trg was so fun. i'll post the pic of rodney later ^^

somebodayy.. needs the hand dryer!!! HAHAHAHHA. sorry, inside joke.

repeat outloud, valerie ellery valerie ellery, until you can't say it anymore X)

DARLING(:

Love's Philosophy

The fountains mingle with the river,
And the rivers with the ocean;
The winds of heaven mix forever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
All things by a law divine
In another's being mingle--
Why not I with thine?

See, the mountains kiss high heaven,
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister flower could be forgiven
If it disdained its brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea;--
What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?

Percy Bysshe Shelley

<3

heh.

it's not his curses; im gonna work to getting that grade that i want. and im gonna show it to him, smack it into his fucking face. then he'll come up with some lame excuse.

but it really hurts when the person you once trusted most, the person you've looked upon for love and security, decides to lose faith in you.

i dont even think they'll mind if i decided to kill myself right here right now. they'll probably go like," that stupid girl, mess up her room again."

it sucks to know about other people's happy endings, and that it's far from yours.

don't you just love MCR?

"i am not afraid to keep on living
i am not afraid to walk this world alone."

i wish.

it's day 2, and im not that =( anymore (:

goodness. this is so cool. HAHA.

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou(:

happy cny.

MCR rocks.

im such a cynical little girl.

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourcandyheartsayquiz/">What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

i dont know why.

It's chinese new yr. the festival where people get tgt to kpo about their families and lives, kpo about their KID'S lives. the festival where children love most (ang baos, act cute), where single adults are depressed about, and where teens dont know whether to be happy or depressed. i mean, you still get ang baos, don't you? like after all the grilling about your own lives with no one there to cue you and you can't act cute to get your way out.

and there's the part when your parents embarrass you infront of all the guests.

anyway, it's CNY eve, and im sour and depressed. even the aunties could tell. thats bad, right?

so i attempted to kill myself by walking 3++km home. in heels. im not dead, dammit.

coz the people whom i had faith in most have lost faith in me.

nvm.

happy CNY to one and all.

How do i love thee

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

heh. sean and jimmy running tgt are damn cute. so cute can. *pinches cheeks* should have taken pics, dammit. heh. (im not the only person saying this.)

and happy chinese new yr eve to all. ^^

hello darrrlllinggg. (:

it's a friday night, and batman on TV is just plain lame. seriously, why does batman have to choose what he wears (as in the suit) when all are the same anyway. lol.

<3youdarling

CNY carnival cum ROADRUN!! not that it was particularly interesting, but beta rocks man.

beta rocks
beta rocks

beta rocks
beta rocks

BETA ROCKS!!!!!!!!!

hahah YAHMAN!!! congrats to shrompy, trish, debbie, gwen and sophia! got 1st for team eh? XD

went back to bwp with LEN <3>

yeah thats the pic of the algae filled fountain. lol.

oh yes!!! i want you people to meet my girlfriend!

hot right? XD

ok anyway, we bought ms toh honey stars which she rejected (damn!) and she wouldnt accept the oranges either. so we stuffed them into her locker and MAYBE (hopefully) she'll take it before she leaves for CNY hols. hoho.

i suggested buying condoms for her (you know, start the new yr safely) but i have no idea what she'll say anyway. plus they were so cheap. omg, 1.70 plus nia! (thats the pack of 3) HEH. now i know what to give people on Vday nx yr alr. maybe the pack of 18 might do..

im sorry, i couldnt help it. HEH.

oh and we walked into this shop, which SELLS OH SO CUTE STUFF!!!!!

im sorry, len's not for sale. it's the bear.

but i think the best thing sold there is this.

omg so NICEEEEEEEEEE. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, was taking the bus home with len. so basically we were 2 tired people, so i put my head on her shoulder for awhile before she decided that my head is too heavy LOL. anyway, when i got off, i gave her a hug and said, bye darling(:, the woman behind us gave me the O.o-are-you-girls-lesb-or-sth look. LOL. this is so retarded ahhhhhh!!!!

ps. len's a girlfriend, but im not lesb. besties are love, ok?

im just trying to make you jealous. ^^ coz you're love.

WHEEE.

life is so sexy.

and im going back to bwp tml! yay! i love you len!

have a nice time in thailand, liwei!

coz me and len have an evil plan cooked up for you. MUAHAHHAA.

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou!(:

it's thursday! and i met darling Sofia and Wahidah on teh bus!! <3

and some girl whacked my hairband off my head onto some VS guy who was sitting behind me. wow.

loves loves loves.

gosh. i miss them so much!

<3333333!!!!!

but i love/miss you more! (((((((:

run, run far, run away, away from this place.

why, you have a psychic thing for knowing when to me talk to me huh? (:

you're making me fall in love with you all over again
with nothing but the ordinary things you're doing.
don't make me worry for you;
coz things aint just that simple.

it's the laughing/smiling bug. im convinced.

HAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAA.

THIS IS SO FUCKING RETARDED LMAO.

ok, so i saw MYRAN and shimon, then i crashed into the wall. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

fucking retarded. XD

it's V day!

not that it's really interesting this yr, but still. it is V day.

i didnt buy anything for anyone, not expecting anything back this yr anyway.

and LA ppt was super screwed up. sighh.

imissyou, sexy.

I SURVIVED THE MATH TEST!!!!!!!!!! DOWN CIRCLES. HAH. YOU CAN GO HUMP THE WALL. AHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

this calls for a dammit celebration.

if only there wasnt the math test tml.

i love ms wong, ms cheah and mr ng. i think. woohoo~

i feel so tired. and so screwed.

i still have no clue on circles, and i really wanna sleep.

plus im really not feeling well.

gawd. murder!

something from king - maybe. chorus is just woohoo.

There I was waiting for a chance
Hoping that you'll understand
The things I wanna say

As my love
Is stronger than before
I wanna see you more and more
But you closed your door

Why don't you try
To open up your heart
I won't take so much of your time

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
Coz I know you’ll never do
Somebody else is waitin' there inside for you
Maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day
Coz I know she's here to stay
But I know to whom you should belong

I believe what you said to me
We should set each other free
That’s how you want it to be

But my love
Is stronger than before
I wanna see you more and more
But you closed your door

Why don't you try
To open up your heart
I won't take so much of your time

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
Coz I know you’ll never do
Somebody else is waitin' there inside for you
Maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day
Coz I know she's here to stay

But my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
Coz I know you’ll never do
Maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day
Coz I know she's here to stay

Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too
Coz I know you’ll never do
Somebody else is waitin' there inside for you
Maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day
Coz I know she's here to stay

But my love is strong
I don't know if this is wrong
But I know to whom you should belong

it just feels so.. fitting.

maybe.

my posts arent showing like normal! arrghhh.

i still cant stand math.

i dont understand a single shit on circle and congruent things.

sorry, i cant help but put this here. from somewhere i cant rmb.

"sticks and stones can break my bones, but whips and chains excite me."

ok, so i got a haircut.

goodness.

byebye sexy ponytail, hello the cute little feller'.

what can i say; it's not your fault. it's not your fault im depressed, its not your fault that im confusedly suicidal.

i need an MC on tues. sick. serious.

or maybe i'll go get myself in some form of accident on tues or mon night. hmmmmm.

B div in 6 wks. 5 more wks of trg. (and i havent bowled on yishun lanes for.. uhhh.. more than half a yr. 8 mths to be exact.) this sucks.

why is so much work due on tues and wed?! it's V day wk!!! gosh. people needa go buy stuff leh!!

maybe, just maybe, you're right.

do i look like aunt agony? goodness.

newspaper collection was plain retarded la. hands. hurt. oww.

im sick, sore and aching all over. this sucks.

my morphine.

i hate it when i am able to tell people how to deal, but i dont know what to tell myself.

7.40, green polo with pants. great. wonderful.

i get to go out! ^^

fuck maths, fuck circles.

you know, it's not LIKE anymore. it evolved.

yes, anyway, the B div thing is kinda confirmed, so..

1st wk of term reopening or sth like that. haha. good luck to me. and the guys needa find 2 more guys to play. LOL. *wondering who it will be.* ^.-

so yeah.

ANY 2 TA1 or 2 GUYS INTERESTED IN JOINING THE BOWLING TEAM FOR THE B DIV? (for the guys quartet event) pls state your interest, like tag my board or sth. lol.

*got chiobu to see!*

goodness. just imagine who would it be anyway. LOL.

it's getting very ridiculous.

just let it go.

i hate this kinda things.

"Why bowlers shouldn't fall in love."

living example, right here.

games today, scores werent terribly good. the balls just kept going to the longkang.

i need a way where i can vent everything out, whether meaningful or meaningless.

gawd people. just kill me. end it quick.

it's just you, alright?

I GOTTA GET THRU THIS.

cheerupmydarling,whydoyousoundsodejected?

AND OMG LIQUID NITROGEN IS FUCKING COOL. THE DROPLETS WERE LIKE RUNNING AROUND THE TABLE OMG SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. then we froze a banana so it came out all hard and unbreakable. XD

good luck to all getting their O results later today! ^^ and those taking their hcl results too. hahha.

love!

cheer up, my darling.

anyway, i love you trishpal kaur. =D <333333333 trishipedia!!! we gotta create that webbie. bound to be more popular than wikipedia, MUAHAHAHHA.

because it's you i love.

yay! 10 more minutes then i can go to my music lesson and my tchr can kill me alr coz i didnt practise (again) and i wanna sleep! XD

watching the wushu guys swinging their sticks vigourously around in the sun from the canteen. wonder what'll happen when their sticks flies off them and bangs someone with it. O.o

wheeeeeeee. tml's FRIDAY. FRIDAYFRIDAYFRIDAY. wkend's here~! screw the hw.y

oh yeah babayyyy~~

yeah i still feel damn sexy

but i hate you, bitch. grrr. grrrr. grrrrrrrrr.

must. control.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!! finally, NC16. hahaa.

im still damn sexy.

friday TOMORROW. gosh, this is FAST. ^^ friday friday friday wheee~

OH YEAH BABAYY IM HIGH HIGH HIGH =DDD

HOTSEX. XD

ms cheah didnt come today! hahaha.

1)Are you in a complicated relationship?
what relationship? =)

2) Do you hate more than 3 people?
sorta. ^^

3) How many houses have you lived in?
1. this one!

4) Favorite candy bar?
i dont know, i prefer chocolate ^^

5) *where did 5 go to?*

6) Have you ever tripped someone?
uhm, yeah. =)

7) Least favorite school subject?
BIO. thats why i dropped it (:

8) How many pairs of shoes do you own?
6 to 7, i think.

9) Do you own a Britney Spears CD?
nah. waste of money.

10) Have you ever thrown up in public?
yeah. it was quite horrible.

11) Name something that is always on your mind:
something, or someone? (:

12) Favorite genre of music?:
every other thing that fits my mood atm

13) What is your zodiac sign?:
aquarius!

14) What time were you born?
go ask my mum.

15) Do you like beer?:
i dont do beer or white wine. red wine and vodka are nice though.

16) Have you made a prank phone call?
sorta. but i ended up talking to that person anyway. lol.

17) What is the most embarassing CD you own?
i dont buy cds.

18) Are you sarcastic?
NO, OF COZ NOT! *sense the sarcasm*

19) What are your favorite color(s)?:
red, white, black, silver, PINK! (gosh this is bad bad bad.)

20) How many watches do you own?
3, but i dont wear watches. muahaha.

21) Summer or winter?
both!

22) Is anyone in love with you?
haha, the wrong people.

23) Favorite color to wear?:
no yellows.

24) Pepsi or Sprite?:
neither. i dont do gasy drinks. unless it's rootbeer ^^

26) Where is your second home?:
school.

27)Ever slapped someone?:
yeah.

29) How many lamps are in your bedroom?:
2

0) How many video games do you own?
you mean, how many games my cuz owns.

31) What was your first pet?
fishie fishie!

32) Where do you want to live when you're older?
somewhere romantic with my darrrlinggg. =)

33) Do looks matter?:
sorta.

34) Do you use chapstick?:
i use gloss

35) Name 3 teachers from college:
Ftong, Leong and OM. gotta love them.

36) abercrombie or american eagle?:
nahh.

37) Are you too forgiving?:
kinda.

38) How many children do you want?:
2 to 4. haha. but i prefer a boy 1st ^^

39) Do you own something from Hot Topic?:
yeah like me. =D

40) Favorite breakfast meal?
milo.

41) Do you own a gun?:
nope, sadly. do waterguns count?

42) Ever thought you were in love?:
YAHMAN!!! i am. ^^

43) When was the last time you cried?
monday.

44) What did you do 2 nights ago?
chionging ss

45) Olive Garden??
nah.

46) Have you ever called your teacher mom?
yeah, good thing no one noticed.

47) Have you ever been in a castle?:
nah. but im GONNA BUILD ONE. HAHAHAHA.

48) Nicknames?
nah, dont like 'em.

49) Do you know anyone named Bertha?
no, are you bertha?

50) Ever been to Kentucky?
nope.

52) Are you thinking about somebody right now?:
YEAH! <3

53) Ever called somebody Boo?:
no, but i say boo to people. boo! *ahh im so scared*

54) Do you own a diamond ring?:
IN THE FUTURE. *coughengagementringcough*

55) Do you want to witness a tornado?
YEAH!

56) Are you happy with your life right now?:
sorta.

57)Do you like your hair?:
YES.

58)Does anyone have a crush on you?:
yeah. all the wrong people.

60) What were you doing on May 8th of 1994?
in school, i suppose.

61)Like cartoons?:
spongebob rocks.

62) McDonalds or BK?:
neither.

63)Smile alot?:
YEAH. coz i look scary if i dont. =.=

64) Are you closer to your mother or father?
mum. i say hi to her.

65) Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex?
depends on which level you're thinking on. the unsick factor will be the features on the face. ^^ and the sick factor is the BOD. oolala~

66) Are you afraid of the dark?
nope, i like it dark. i cant study in the day.

67) Have you ever eaten paste?
what kinda paste?

68) Do you own a webcam?
no, buying soon.

69) Have you ever stripped?:
YAHMAN!!! who doesnt -.-

70) Ever broke a bone?:
nope. sprains, yeah.

71) Are you religious?:
sorta.

72) Do you chat on MSN often?:
mmhmm.

74) Have you ever broken someones heart?:
yeah, sadly. all the wrong people..

76) Full House or The Brady Bunch?
neither

77) Did you like your college guidance counselor?
who is it?

78) Has anyone ever called you a tease?
heh.

79) Do you have a birth mark?
nope, but i could have a heartshaped one on my back that i could fake as a tattoo. =D

80) Do you own a car?
in future.

81) Can you cook?:
yeah.

82) 3 things that annoy you:
people leaving me without an answer, impatient bastards, unreasonable assholes.

83) Do you text message often?:
kinda.

84) Money or love?:
both. ^^

85) Do you have any scars?:
yeah, quite alot but the most prominent ones are the elbow one and the OBS ankle ropeburn. sexay.

86) What do you want more than anything right now?
YOU. ok, and for all my hw to disappear.

87) Do you enjoy scary movies?:
if i have someone to clutch onto.

88) Relationships or one night stands?:
relationships, for now.

89) Big Red or Juicy Fruit?:
big RED. biased choice.

90) Do you enjoy greasy food?:
not really.

91) Have you seen all the Rocky movies?:
nope.

93) Ever had sex in a public place?:
haha, one day la. XD

94) Who was the last person you said I love you to?:
serene.

95) Who was the last person that made you mad?:
serene, sadly, coz she rejected me =(

96) What would you like to suck?
it's asking for a damn wrong answer.

97) Who was the last person that made you laugh?
myran ^^

98) Who was the last person that texted you?
my mum by sms and myran on msn.

99) Who was the last person to call you?:
some.. guy.

100)ice-cubed or crushed?
both, as long as it's sexy. ^^

yay, ok gtg. ^^

IM SEXAYYYYY~!!!!!!!! IM HOT YEAH OH YEAH BABAYY I LOVE YOUUUUUUU~~~

uhm, yeah.

went around telling people that they are hot/chio/ sexayy, but we all know, that IM THE SEXY ONE =DDDDD

HAHA. got your hormones racing yeah? XD

and changing shirts in maths class is fun, esp when the teacher doesnt know. =D

im so guai, i tied my hair today. shrompy said it looks cute, but thats the ponytail. IM HOT. :DDD

and chris is living in selfdenial that he has a firm butt. yeah RIIIGHT. IM HOT. im like super hot lar. =D

im insanely high, and i LOVE IT coz im HOT AND IM SEXAYY and i think i'l go hump the chair or sth.

byebye!

i am officially royally pissed with my fucking parents. 1st, they find it amusing to lecture me every hr last night/morning while i was doing my ss. and now they decided to remove the fucking wireless. (with tons of lecturing, pure torture.) woohoo. meet the all new no-lifer chue weixin!

and i screamed it all out to liwei over the phone. thanks babe.

sorry denise and the rest of the people i blowed up at today, was cranky, temperamental and emotionally abused.

and i really did wish the van would just hit me.

because you live by jesse mccartney gives me this wonderfully odd, calm feeling at times least expected for me to calm down. love it. love you. (:

buey tahan alr la. must sleep. nites!

YAY. sonia can blog HERE. MUAHAHAHA

WeiXin is a CRAZY girl who love the SLounge for some reason NO ONE understands (well except for herself) HAhahahahahahahaha

*evil laughter*

ok nvm.

=D

gosh. im alternating between being super high and super low. all in a span of 5 seconds. this is oh so fun tralala~

i love you
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU!!!!!

=)

im sorry, im not the dream daughter you always wanted. you just dont understand, dont you?

i CAN'T do my work in the daytime. distraction, you know.
i CAN'T listen to you all the time because i have my own work to do.
i CAN'T not have my own life.
i CAN'T be perfect.

i wish the van in the morning didn't slow down in order not to hit me. i wish it just did.

yes, im blogging too much and at seriously random times of the day for my own good. but thats alright, i feel like it!

not intending to slp now, since i'll just be more tired when i wake up. but LUCKILY tml's a short short day. =) and there's sth invented by the name of COFFEE. ^^

yes, i know. ss essay. haiyar. who cares about the dammit economy. lets all go be farmers.

and i got this sudden urge to wear eyeliner to sch tml. no, no red tees. (:

and yes yes yes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHROMPY!! =DDDDD oohyeah~~

can i like, quit sch?

gosh. im losing it. im losing my optimistic outlook. this is badddd.

anyway, mr ng alr said that ip students cant play in the a div. well.. FUCKIT. honestly, i dont wanna play in the b divs. it just feels.. weird. but then again, if the jc people can come cheer for us.. =D whee~

shld i wear red tml? lemme check my wardrobe. =) ok, maybe not.

ok, my whole family's watching the soccer match now. im not exactly biased against soccer, but i just really dont like it. anyway, whole family = dad, bros and mum. in this case. im not a bloody soccer person. and i heard the goal over my earphones. wonderful.

haiyarr. im depressed again. i dont like this larrr. =( sucks real bad.

im sorry, i never knew. and you ARE loved.

one of the stupidest things to do on a cold day is to have a cold bath, then put prickly heat powder. FREEZING.

i dont like ss. and im sleepy.

i wish i could see you.
i wish to hold your hand once again.
i wish i could hold you.
i wish i could tell you that i love you.
i wish you could tell me all your little secrets like we did.

i wish we didnt have to say goodbye.

whatever, bitch.

slpt at 10plus last night. LOL. thats like frrreaking early. gosh. and i still slpt thru my alarm. this is baddd.

ponned pe today, told mr ng that i felt like puking. ok it isnt really ponning, i really wanted to puke. I KNOW WHY!!!! I MUST BE PREGNANT!!! HAHAHAHAH. riiiiight. XD im guai, ok? ^^

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只希望是她真的比我还要爱你.

yay. lets blog about how wonderful trg was ytd! (apart from all that painful moaning)

hougang's probably on budget on the lane oiling. it's like, i was playing 39-10!!! to hit 1-3!!! omg la. haha. usually i'll play about 25-10 only. 14 boards!!! and that means i cant spare pin10 for nuts lor. ahhh!! imagine if tml's lane condition gets dryer O.O (or maybe they made the lanes dry so those noob bowlers whose ball hooks 1 board can start hooking like mad.) dan yuan ru ci!

remind me, not to do pullups without stretching again. arm still pain~ yay i shall get people to poke my arm again so i can start my (rather loud) moaning during trg again. HAHA. JUSTKIDDING.

things sound wrong when thought about it in the right way, things sound right when thought abt it in the wrong way. (:

because you're the one who makes and breaks me! =D

siao liao arh!!! LA essay today FTW!!! =DDD

and trg ytd was fun, apart from trying to get people to kill my arm (aka massage it) and moaning coz it really felt painfully good when you rub the right spots. ok that sounds damn wrong la. NEVERMINDDD. X)

wah. so paiseh. HAHA. and i still feel gay.

Sonnet

I wish I could remember that first day,
First hour, first moment of your meeting me,
If bright or dim the season, it might be
Summer or winter for aught I can say;
So unrecorded did it slip away,
So blind was I to see and to foresee,
So dull to mark the budding of my tree
That would not blossom yet for many a May.
If only I could recollect it, such
A day of days! I let it come and go
As traceless as a thaw of bygone snow;
It seem'd to mean so little, meant so much;
If only now I could recall that touch,
First touch of hand in hand--Did one but know!

Christina Rossetti

i've gone nuts. and there's nothing anyone can do abt it.

thankew shrompy, trish and kim for this aftnn. and sry to kim for worrying. im fine, really. =)