(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)

What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas,
but what if it don't?
What happens in my head stays in my head,
but sometimes it won't.
What if you knew what I was thinking,
would it make you like, 'Whoah!' ?
I don't wanna risk putting my foot in it,
so I keep my mouth closed.

All you hear is:
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip.
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gotta 'beep' out what I really wanna shout.

Whoops, did I say it out loud?
Did you find out?

I wanna have your babies,
get serious like crazy.
I wanna have your babies,
I see them springing up like daisies.

Yeah...

Some of my feelings keep escaping,
so I make it a joke.
Nonchalant I keep on faking,
so my heart don't get broke.
I'm in a big, big, big, big ocean,
in a tiny little boat.
I'll only put the idea out there
if I know it's gonna float.

All you hear is:
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip.
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gotta 'beep' out what I really wanna shout.

Whoops, did I say it out loud?
Did you find out?

I wanna have your babies,
get serious like crazy.
I wanna have your babies,
I see them springing up like daisies.

'Cos in my head there's a slot machine,
And i'm betting your the one in my hopes and dreams.

La la la la la, la la la la la la la
La la la la la, la la, la la.

Trust me it would scare you if you knew what was going on in my brain.
Trust me it would scare you,
that i've picked out the church, all the schools, all the names.
If you knew it was all about you,
Every wish, every candle, every coin in the fountain.

Trust me it would scare you,
thats why I go:
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip.
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gotta 'beep' out what I really wanna shout.

Whoops, did I say it out loud?
Did you find out?

I wanna have your babies,
get serious like crazy.
I wanna have your babies,
I see them springing up like daisies.

(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gonna button my lips so the truth don't slip.
(Mmm mm mm mm mm mm mm)
Gotta 'beep' out what I really wanna shout.

Whoops, did I say it out loud?
Did you find out?

I wanna have your babies,
get serious like crazy.
I wanna have your babies,
I see them springing up like daisies.

(Heres one, theres another.
Oh! Theres one...
Theres a baby... theres one.
Babies, babies, babies, babies, babies,
I wanna have your babies!)

One day maybe you'll find out...

nanananannana X)

i feel happy. (:

yesterday was fun (:

wore the slippers that make loads of noise to yishun. hehe. i got sexy slippers kae?

the games werent too good. eurgh.
sucky average.

anyways, after that went to hougang to bowl again with elaine, so i guess it was 12 games ytd? nvm. the fingers hurt.

OH YEAH. HAHA. HOUGANG. was happily throwing, yes, throwing, houseballs down the lane there during the 4 games with elaine. so fun! the true meaning of bowling fun. (: anyway those guys at the other lane looked quite suprised when i used my own ball after a few throws. guess they thought i didnt know how to bowl. (i used left hand. HEH.) elaine you never see meh? HAHAHAHA. FUNNAYIIIEEEEEEE. (:

HI. my name is sleepy. meet grumpy, lazy, happy, petty and sammie! OH and snowwhite too! (: dont worry daryl i wont post your pic. =D

Sleepy was my name during trg. now it's Cinderella (:

wheee haaaaa.

Now i need someone to go to yishun with me on monday. i wanna see final results! screw the bad average, i wanna go. =(((( pls?

i miss you, you ass! X)

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

the purple parts. for you. except for the father part.

ok, now that im not so depressed, i can blog. yay!

yeap. i love ms jiang. nice leh, the 1st tchr who offered to teach me coz i missed lessons. and i actually understand what she's trying to teach! (: unlike certain teachers, she even bothered to ask how the bloody comp went instd of the usual nagging. (:

ohoh, and mrs leong is plain retarded. apparently she hates me because i alr got my notes b4 the class started. and she loves to pick on me. so yeapp. when she told me, i mean, ORDERED me with the dont-listen-to-me-and-i'll-come-over-and-molest-you look to put my bag down i was trying to nip chocolate off BECAUSE SHE IS SO BORING AND SHE MAKES ME CRAVE BITING THE TABLE and shredding the window into pieces. not smashing, SHREDDING.

ah. see the big big difference between my math teachers.

(:

i just received depressing news.

the tabbie's only coming back nxt thurs. AHHHHHH. =(((((((

sigh.

hello.

i am depressed.

no tabbie for the night. or weekend.

bahhh.

i got good news, bad news and depressing news. which to go 1st?

ok, the depressing one.
the tablet tiao lou zi sha-ed. =((((( and it cannot be start up. rod and butt pointed out what the problem was, but tehn again, i dont get a single thing from computing students.
so right now im using the house com, and my dad see my buey song lor. so, like that la. how am i suppposed to survive chem tml =(((

the bad one:
my games sucked. terribly.
thankew to the team for being there, ESPEICIALLY EVE AND LIPIN!!!!! and supporting the pathetic team of 4 (HA.HA.) very giggly girls who decided to be retarded and ask this cute little RI guy for his friendster and got daoed. bet his diary/blog will be written as," today i met the most retareded kukuheads who said i was v cute." ok, he's cute coz he looks like dexter(the one with a blonde sis called deedee or sth), which isnt v cute. HIS SOCKS DAMN COOL CAN. i shallsee if i wanna wear it to sch tml. =)

the good one:
HAHAHAHA ASK ME!!!!!! im not saying it here, it's quite.. well, you know. no, it has nothing to do with the impatient auntie this time. hahhahahahha.

anyway, there's one that is more depressing.

EVELYN JUNELLA WOEN IS GOING TO THE STATES IN MAY. wont you miss me, my "ex-lover" (and mummy)? =((( ok she says yes, but ARGHHHH. THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD. =(((

boohoo.

ok, i shall go rest the stiff hand.

and i hate keyboards.

and on a side and random note, it's quite sad that some cute cute guys grow up and turn gay. boohoohoo.

I JUST REALISED SOMETHING IMPORTANT, BUT IM NOT TELLING YOU COZ YOU ALL PROBABLY ALREADY KNOW.

oopsie.

BUT IT'S MAKING ME HIGH ALL THE SAME!!! (:

Butterflies aren't sexy when they are in you.

goshhhh.

anyway the chem presentation was rather interesting, kana stumped at one 1st. but it was fun all the same! orange pingpong ballllllls (:

and the rum and raisin chocolate right now is making me quite high too! ALCOHOLLL~~~

IM DRUNK. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAA.

OH YES. i missed this part out.

the handphone socks sentence reads out as:

"Juicy dangerous boy tongue kissing pencils."

no, it's a sentence formed using phone socks.

lets buy that for marcus tan. (:

with the igallop thing. HAHAHAA.

TODAY WAS A VERY FUN DAY.

esp since i dont have math lessons, and i really do love my IS coz it's math which i dont understand but it's fun to find out and cancel everything out. =DDD

went to pp with denise and sonia, spased around, what else. while buying sonia's maid a bdae prez. aww so sweet. hahaha.

the busride there was retarded too. we were talking about mr hassim and something about the brand of shampoo he uses. HEH. shhhhhh.(:

anyway, we saw the gallop thing and this guy sitting on it, and he seriously looked as if he was humping something. HOHO. and thus the whole topic of mr marcus tan came out. so he was the main topic of our spasness. HAHAHAHAA. THE PINK PRINCESS PHOTO FRAME!!!!!! oh, and the phone socks. =DDDDDD

so the v nice me went to pick the little bro up, and nearly got into a fight with an oversensitive auntie who obviously doesnt take the public transport very often. you know, taking care of a 7 yr old little boy in an overcrowded bus isnt very easy with the people pushing. SO. the very "lucky" me was behind her, and therefore pushed her coz the people behind were pushing too!

the naturally stupid auntie therefore deduced that i was being retarded and that one of my hobbies is pushing people down the bus. and so she started her ranting somewhere along the lines of me deliberately pushing her, blahblahblah.

i am a nice person, i diss.

*a few lines from her later, off the bus*

"gosh, cant you see people behind pushing as well?"
"NO I SAW YOU PUSHING ME. CANNOT WAIT IS IT?"
"the bus is crowded. so, yeah." *gives the kind of face that even i buey tahan*
"stupid.. blahblahblah"
"whatever." *waves hand in bitchy manner without turning back*

yeah, she was seething with anger, but it's not my fault that she is retarded and has no sense of logic. i dont really give a shit if it's her 1st time taking the public transport coz she IS now taking the public transport probably because her kids (or does she even have kids anws) cant stand her and decide that a private transport for her is a very bad choice and thus rather take the car and throw it down the ocean than let her drive.

who gives a fuck about these mentally slow people?

ok, basically i did the whatever and hand thing because i cant stand it either. gosh i cant stand myself either! HAHAHAHA.

i am a bitch, and i dont deny it. (:

tml's wednesday aftnn!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ok, gotta go understand chem. presentation tml. siannned.

=D

im high. high high high!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

/why are you doing this to me

ohgawddd.

tml's wednesday alrrrrr. shitshitshit.

chem ppt, LA hw, loads and loads of overdue hw.

quartet event.

ok, kill me.

i cant help but feel very negative about this. i mean, i used to be positive, but i guess i turned cynical. i am. cynical.

cynical is my middle name. call me cyn.

OK DONT. dont dont dont. it's retarded.

circuit training today was rather fun. (:

OHGOSH IT"S RAINING. HAHAHAHA. YAYYYYYYYYY =DDDDD

i feel so happy right now.

wednesday, here i come! (:

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou <333333

when are you coming back for me?

monday morning waking up
in an empty bed
thought i'd feel you next to me
but im alone instead

did i scare you
when i said i needed you
or was it just a one night stand
and nothing real to you

when are you coming back for me?
coz no one else can be your girl
when are you coming back to see
it's a lonely world for me

it's a lonely world for me

when are you coming back for me?
coz no one else can be your girl
when are you coming back to see
it's a lonely world for me

it's a lonely world for me

boy i think that you should know by now
that i want to be with you somehow

saw you walking down the street
with somebody new
why are you doing this to me?
what have i done to you?

did i scare you
when i said i needed you?
or was it just a one night stand
and nothing real to you?

when are you coming back for me?
coz no one else can be your girl
when are you coming back to see
it's a lonely world for me

boy i think that you should know by now
that i want to be with you somehow

when are you coming back for me?
coz no one else can be your girl
when are you coming back to see
it's a lonely world for me

it's a lonely world for me

when are you coming back for me.. for me.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.

She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too,and refused to marry him.Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying, "Just take care of my eyes, dear."

&Everything fell into place with just 3 words

i feel loved.

for once.

even though it's not you, i still feel loved.

HAH.

and suddenly i realised.

all i needed was someone who said that he loved me, and meant it.

that was all it needed to melt the heart.

i am. sick. of being. nice.

i am. sick. of changing myself. to accomodate. you. people.

i am. sick. of guys. who speak of nothing. but sex.

i am. sick. of people. like you.

i am. sick. of. everything.



so much for the resolution to stop rejecting guys. it's difficult not to when all the other party wants is to have indecent body contact.

Yet all i want is love.

HAPPY 500TH POST TO BLOGGIE!!!!!!!!

and i rmb the 1st post was len's. hee hee.

anyway, the finger's sexily swollen, it's the middle finger alright. sounds wrong, middle finger swollen. ok it's just me. dont think about it.

and i have absolutely no confidence in a 220 av.

ok, i shall remove all the polish on my toenails and repaint them. (: sounds good eh?

gosh. i just realised that it's been quite a long time since i've seen the original colour of my toenails.

ok, they are back to being black. heh.

the broken fingernail is still broken. ok, make that torn. boohoohoo.

i am. so. vain. and the best part is, i dont deny it. =D

I dont wanna be his, i wanna be yours.

today is friday. (:

THE HELL WEEK IS OVER HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

phys test was rubbish la. i get a 2 digit number out of 70 quite happy alr, since i didnt even touch the books. (:

anyway, yesterday was rather disturbing.
i still wanna wash my eyes.
stupid despo yellow person. literally.

I SWEAR I WAS BLIND. goodness.

HAHHAHAHA.

yes, the comp.

the games were not too bad, compared to monday's. average of 141.666 or sth like that. (:
the 1st 2 games were 160+, and the rest just dropped. boohoo.

anyway, for an average of 160, i need an average of 220 for the rest of the games to cover up for the pre 2 days. and therefore that really sucks ass. not like im not aiming. (: (The Inner Voice says,"weixin just go die la.") HAHAHA.

and the RI guy(1st 2 games) looked quite sadddd. because i trashed him. ha. ha. it's alright, just get used to it! (TIV says," weixin go die la.")

oh shaddup TIV. im trying to get my ego back, alright? (:

anyway, the hand hurts. the palm hurts a LITTLE. and i shall go for trg later today. WHEE HAA HAAAA~~

if that isnt suicide i dont know what is. (actually i do, but nvm.)

(((((:

btw i cant throw discuses for nuts. i keep turning it so it becomes a flopping discus. whee haa~

*whacks head and repeats to self* itwassec2 itwassec2 itwassec2..

my fingers hurt.

even typing hurts. boohoohoo.

=((((((((((

how to bowl laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr =(((((((((((((((

i am depressed.

and LA is so boring, sigh.

imissyou=(

because whenever i say i love you, i dont mean it. from the bottom of my heart.

i ought to be shot and killed.

today was hell. sorta.

i flunked chem and maths. woohoo. yeah rightt. =( boohoo.

anyway, trg was pretty good, coz we were doing sparing then games. sparing is good, you know. (:

and the games. WOOHAHAHAHAHA.



lookies the one on top. (:

for someone who is planning to quit bowling and join english club (if there's one) or sth, this. is good. =D

and it's my 1st 6 bagger! HAHA.

yeah, im a noob in bowling (: whee haaaa~

though the fingers hurt and the thumb is eeyer again, im kinda happy. kinda.

coz the av of the 2 games is only 180. after a 221, can guess how bad the other game was. eeyer.

must play better than this tml! wheee haaaaa~

ok yeah. apart from that, im stressed. sigh.

We Belong Together.
Mariah Carey

I didn’t mean it when I said
I didn’t love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn’t know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn’t have fathomed
I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I’d be sitting
Here beside myself
Guess I didn’t know you
Guess I didn’t know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby

When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please 'cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together

I can’t sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack’s on the radio
Singing to me “If You Think You’re Lonely Now”
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin’ to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
“I Only Think Of You” and it’s breakin’ my heart
I’m tryin’ to keep it together but I’m falling apart

I’m feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin’
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby

When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please 'cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

sigh. boohoo. i hate LA.

hello!

if you see this blog post, feel honoured. (:

hello!

if you see this blog post, feel honoured. (:

chem and math are over. im screwed.

boohoo. =(

anyway i've given up talking to stupid people. so yeah.

dont worry it's just dms now. not pms, it's the other one.

it sucks.

you suck too.

today, i was on a whatever mode.

so whatever you say was responded with a whatever. (: ok, quite alot, not all.

whatever.

you horrible asshole, i miss you. =(

ok yeap.

i changed blog address. but i think i'll change it again. whee haa.

PE was interesting. med ball! X) so me val and zuoqi didnt have to run and do the prenatal (HAHA) exercises with the rest.

but we did that during camp alr. =X

anyway, phys is boring the shit outta me. byebye.

in 2005, i said,"guys who bother to do their hair are hawt."

in 2007, i disagree.

'cause some just grab their hair in clumps of gel and call that done.

i must have been blind.

anyway, now that i feel much much better (and my thumb too), i feel like talking rubbish!

today, my nail tore. right hand middle finger. at the point where the ball weight is on when i release. uh oh. it looks fugly now, dammit. I WANT MY NAIL BACK boohoohoo. anyway because of that i didnt release properly and was just throwing the ball instd of rolling it. the ball was practically spinning. gosh.

and of all times my period has to come, it just HAD to come 15 min b4 the com started. wow. i have a history of menses during bowling comps anyway. boohoo. but i guess the good thing is i always discover it before the actual thing starts. YAY. whee heeeeee~

anyway, went back to sch, courtesy of mr ng who sent me, serene and val back with 5 bowling bags (haha). whee haa. so fun to talk rubbish with serene, but too bad cannot detail so much. wx!!!!!!!!!! HHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

gayed around with myran and lovecalculator.com until his daddy came, and boy! the results were rather.. interesting, right myran? *cough va.. cough* then i fell aslp in the canteen. AGAIN.

had black fingernails too, now it's off anyway. (gosh whats the diff =.=)

you're turning into one of them too, are you?

ok, the decision is out!

im not dsaing out; QUIT BOWLING AND JOIN.. uhh.. AVA CLUB!!!!!

ok maybe im not serious about that, but yeah.

it sucked. big time.

because, no cute guys ma. (pukes)

anyways my thumb hurts like mad right now and i cant write for fuck's sake.

boohoo.

Do i look masculine to you?

On a lighter note, someone said i looked manly and intellectual from my friendster photos. *direct copy.*

manly.

wth.

anyway the times asia (emitasia) thing has me stated as "MR CHUE WEI-XIN".

GO DIE LA. *no spacing btw. whats with people and spacings btwn chinese names?*

once more, i repeat. i do not have a thing dangling between my legs aka a dick.

but i like people with a thing dangling between their legs aka a dick aka MEMBERS OF THE MALE SPECIES.

not that i dont like girls; im just not bi anymore. sorry.

'because you live' by jesse mccartney is a very calming song. to me, at least. (:

to me only, because of you.

it's really strange when all the people who tell you that they do care for you arent your closest family members, but your friends.

it's the same way when the people who are there for you in times of need, support in your every crazy and out-of-the-world decision that you make without doubting your capabilities or questioning you on whether the decision was because of a bad mistake from the past and lend you a listening ear when you need to bitch arent your immediate family, but your friends.

why are there so many people encouraging me, but none of them are actually my family members?

i couldnt even get thru a qn of whether i should go for dsa without getting intergorrated and accused of having seriously poor results in my current sch that made my decision.

trust me, that broke my heart. real badly.

why, when i excitedly (ok, more than excited. i was literally jumping off the roof.) called my dad to tell him i got into TA (im not that excited now, as you can see.) in sec 2, all he said was," orh. ok luh." you know, personally, i expected more than that. so much more. he even managed to sound disappointed.

why, he got more excited when he heard that my bro got posted to some neighbourhood school for heavens sake.

cant you see im doing all this shit just because of you people? if not for you guys i'd probably be one of those wrist slicing emos who do nothing but drugs. and cigs and beers. and sex too. for the entire day, ruining their worthless lives away because it is worthless. not that i dont cut; it relieves the pain inside. i just dont do the rest. (which reminds me. i gtg sterilise the penknife.)

im an attention loving bitch. and maybe im suffering right now is because im working too hard for your attn. it actually feels quite good when you boast about me; at least you rmb that you have a daughter. but then it turns into insults and gossipping about untruthful "truths" about me in which the most experienced liar would blush in shame.

you dont give a shit about me on normal days, but when it actually took a teacher to call you guys up and talk about my problems in school, your attitude just changed. you became so sickeningly sweet towards me; it was nauseating. why did it actually take a stranger (a bitch at that.) to tell you that i am changing into something that even scares myself?

guess i'll just never know. take that you never had this daughter.

ok, this post is going to be about serious irrelavant crap. you can skip it if you like. (or maybe it's koped from somewhere in my convo with sonia last night)

nehways, in my opinion, braces(teeth) are damn cool, because, if the love of your life wears braces too, and you guys kiss, YOU GET STUCK! (to each other at the mouth!) not very glam, but, you know, prolonged kisses and you cant do anything about it? (:

no, im not getting braces. dentist say dont need.

hmm, what other cool things..

oh! lessons 101 on how to get body contact with the guy/girl you like and hug him/her or sth like that.

1) run at fullspeed and crash into him/her. confirm got alot of body contact. plus you could hug him later on.

2) pretend to faint infrnt of him/her. if s/he just walks past you s/he's probably not worth your time. s/he should bend over you and check if you're alright, yeah? get someone to convince him/her that you need mouth to mouth res and by then, wake up. (:

3) walk up to him/her and give him a hug.

im just not sure if guys should do (1) because they'll probably trample the girl over.

ohwells. (: happy bumping!

i feel horribly fucked up.

there's tons of work to be done, and im not thru with it yet. and im slacking. fuck. (not thru with it yet means i've started on one, but not done yet, so i still have the rest and i havent studied.)

b div on monday.

ok, even though mr ng and coach are like telling us that it's just for exposure and that scores doesnt matter, im still stressed.

i really dont wanna let the coaches or the teachers down. after all, im the bloody most senior in bowling in the TA team. unlike last yr where i could just fuck up my scores like crazy and no one really gave a shit because it was the A divs after all and i was only supposed to play in B. and i was 2nd youngest (:

now im the oldest. great. (anyway, on a side note, i wonder if the coaches will be there on the days im playing.)



so i wanna dsa out. big deal.

OK FINE, it's a very big deal.

but seriously, 2 more yrs in TJ and i'll go mad. not like im not mad alr, but still. im dying here.

so i have 2 options.

1) get into dsa, prefarably vj or rj (who aims lower?) and good for me!

2) if i dont get into dsa.. well.. stay in tj for 2 more yrs and suffer and mug for As.

not much of a choice, do i?

on a lighter note, im probably playing with cat high on monday.. ohwait. cat high doesnt have any special meaning to it. hmm. erhh.. rephrase that then. im happy that im playing with cat high on monday because I WANNA SEE IF I CAN TRASH THEM.

BWAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.

that was evil. (:

ok lets aim on what i wanna get from b divs! yay.

in my squad (A, i think.), i wanna emerge 1st. (pls la, my squad only got 3 girls team, can one la.)

for overall girls, I WANNA BE IN 1ST PAGE. =)

im not aiming high, am i?

ok lets change the overall girls thing then.

for overall girls, I WANNA GET INTO MASTERS.

MUCH BETTER (((((((((:

anws, my thumb is horribly mutilated. maybe not that horrible, but it's painful alright. please let the skin of the blister grow back before monday. =(

the new timetable sucks. period.

p/s. the dsa thing is for real, and im not going for it just because i wanna be in the same sch as you. even though that could be included. (:

camp was fun (: apart from the hurting butt and hmwk in the middle of the night, it was great.

nehways, yeetien is now the mamasan. as she says,"must take care of my girls." ahh nvm. heh heh.

i finally conclude that i was seriously damn blind. not 1 case alr. shit. but thats alright, because im not anymore. totally. (:

gen is drunk after 8. chris is drunk all the time. HAHA. fun busrides (:

the weather v nice today hor? =D

5 more days. sigh.

need i say more? <3 (:

movie mania was fun, even though the LT became a northpole feelalike. the ring is retarded btw, but it was fun screaming. =D

ahhh so happy so happy, daddy and mummy let me stay overnight (: <3

anyway, i found the 2005 yrbook in the female toilet as well, and im still wondering why it was in the toilet.

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH AHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

sorry, private things that make me high. (:

tonight's the last night where i slp alone in my room! yay(:

gosh im making everything sound so wrong XP

why isnt it you instead?

i need my anti depressant. where're you?

you asked if i was happy in sch.

but let me ask you, do i look happy at home too?

because im sick of giving shits to things i dont wanna give a shit about.

BEE-EYE-TEE-SEE-ECH

who you? yeah you.

Darling you make me happy (:

you make me smile, even on my lowest days. (:

Whats wrong with me?

argh.

come to think of it, it's more of,

whats right with me?

last evening was so so so so so so so so fun!!!!!!! =DDDDD

coz it was raining and the very intelligent me decided to go run in the rain from my house to my amah house WITH MY PHONE. then it started pouring. =.= i was a drenched inverted carrot. never wear a orange shirt with green shorts and start running near the road in the rain.

yeah anyway i think im going mad over pink again.

ok maybe not exactly. im really into red. (:

though my nails are now pink and i got a pink penknife in my pink pencilcase now. =DDDDDD

it's a cute cute baby pink with grey. (:

YES, finally, my very own penknife. heh heh heh. coz before that my parents thought that penknifes were really dangerous for me, since i never knew how to handle them without accidentally cutting myself. but now since i know how to handle them, i can handle them and not accidentally cut myself. YAY.

so that means i wont be going around asking people for penknifes. =)

this is so sexy.

ok im off to paint the other hand. byebye! (((((:

p.s. natural yoghurt makes me nauseous. no idea why.

The girl is exhausted. throughly exhausted.

today's trg was fairly alright, apart from whacking my left heel with the ball and a blister on my hand. sigh.

OH YEAH. sth damn cool happened today. when we were nearing hougang it was pouring like crazy, then when we reached, it stopped raining and after we got into the alley it started pouring like crazy again. (:

请你别再让我操心，好吗？

sigh.

life is so horrible. ok, maybe just term 2 wk 1.

monday: comp
tues: differentiation test
wed: chem test
thurs: comp
fri: physics test

haiyar. can just go and die alr.

and i have a bowling trg camp during the hols.

tell me this rocks.

convince me it does.

'cause darling, i miss you so.

'cause i miss you. real badly.

and i cant help but cry everytime i think about you. much less talk about you.

it's not my fault that it's been so long and i haven't gotten over it yet; no one made it easy. i didnt tell anyone about it; they pretty much kept the subject taboo.

i remember how you used to put your hand in mine, tell me everything that was going on in your life as we just sat there doing nothing but talking.
i remember attempting to teach you how to throw a basketball, but i guess we ended up with just fits of laughter.
i remember that lazy afternn when you told me which disney character you were. lame, i know, but it was something you told me. only.
i remember you running up to me and giving me a hug which made the day worth it. (it wasnt a bed of roses, really.)

i really do regret everything, and it's not like i can do anything now to make up for it.

or maybe i can devote the rest of my life to making a time machine to travel back in time to see you once more. and make you understand that i really do love you.

then again, maybe we should just leave things to be. or rather, i should leave it.

因为爱情是一种心病。

maybe it's because i miss you all of a sudden.