aint feeling as chirpy and bouncy as usual. infact, i feel like shit.

basically, i have officially quitted music. ok, but my mum's asking my tchr if i can just take theory til this paper ends. yeah. something like that. but yeah. the end of the practical part.

there goes the 10yr legacy thing. from... 4? ok, 11 then. been playing the piano until now.

why?

partly, more stress. partly, more social life. partly, msn XD. and mostly, my parents.

try having someone nag or shout at you "go play the piano!" (add in the fireworks) when you're in the middle of a bio report. or ss thing. or geog essay thing. or whatever.

wont it make you resent it? HUH? HUH? HUH?

aniwae, my mum says i can retake after my As. but i dont think i'll be doing so. she'll prob nag abt why i quitted in the 1st place and yadayada, which i am try very hard to avoid. trying very hard indeed.

gosh. im laughing and crying at the same time. AHHHH.

ok nevverminnnd.

my dad's being an ass, as usual. ohwells.

林俊杰
会有那么一天

1943世界大战，
阿麽年轻的时候，
爷爷爱她那么多，
他们感情很深，
但是爷爷，
身负重任，
就在离乡的那一夜，
给了阿麽一个吻，
轻声说道

我要离去，
别再哭泣不要伤心，
请你相信我，
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开，
因为会有那么一天，
我们牵着手在草原，
听鸟儿歌唱的声音，
听我说声我爱你．

夕阳西下，
鸟儿回家，
阿麽躺在病床上，
呼吸有一点散漫，
眼神却很温柔．
看着爷爷湿透的眼
握着他粗糙的手，
阿麽泪水开始流，
轻声说道

我要离去，
别再哭泣不要伤心，
请你相信我，
要等待我的爱陪你永不离开，
因为会有那么一天，
我们牵着手在草原，
听鸟儿歌唱的声音，
听我说声我爱你．

我爱你，真心地爱你

the song just sounded really nice. really. but maybe, i do mean something.

am feeling rather weird. crying and laughing at the same time is no mean feat. =)

aniwae, there's a furniture company by the name of WEIXIN. HAHHA. just realised that ytd. lol, maybe it's built for me! XD

going out with eve lipin and yixuan tml. =) wheee so happy. lalala.

this is weird. im starting with a sad post and ending with a high one. =)

maybe if i saw you again..

Without You
Kimbereley Locke duet with Clay Aiken

Clay:
Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say goodbye
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that i could see
Who's to blame

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am i supposed to live my life?
Without you

Kimberley:
Was I lost in you and me
To the point i couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do

Both:
To see photographs of you

Kimberley:
And stop myself from crying
I should learn to live without your love

Both:
Got so many memories
But it's not enough
Without you, where do i belong?
Without you, how can i go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Clay:
I feel helpless and, oh, so all alone

Kimberley:
Like I've never felt before
Both:

You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?

Oh baby where do I belong?
Please tell how can I go on?
Without you...



Sorry seems to be the hardest word
Blue

What I gotta do to make you love me
What I gotta do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And awake to find that you're not there

What I gotta do to make you want me
What I gotta do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over, babe
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gettin' more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you want me
What I gotta do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad sad situation
And it's gettin' more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What I gotta do to be heard
What do I do when lightening strikes me, yeah
What've I gotta do
What've I gotta do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

nahhh. just thought that these two songs felt really right.

went to sch, and leong was still being a bitch. even though i really dont know if she's teaching my class nxt yr. *please, no*

aniwae, since i was super late for maths and that bitch left alrdy, sooo. i cleared my locker. =)

then went to pp to have lunch with shrompy.

and looked around. a little while. then went to KFC to help shrompy with maths. dont worry, i have broken up with maths. =)

SAW KAIQUAN. and i didnt recognize him -.- must have been the cap he was wearing.

there's PT on friday!!!! and im supposed to have family outing =( so i shall go for it all stinky and sweaty in sch attire. or shall i go bathe and chnge.. heh.

camp's from the 4th to the 6th. must be more prepared than the 1st.

please, please, menses faster come leh. dont let me kana during camp lehhhh. so mafan. =(

nevermind. that was totally........ out of point.

just read the top laaaah.

i just rmbed why i loved the piano.

tinkled the ivories once more, and the rush of emotions that the piano has never failed to evoke come through.

aniwae, either the sch is being dumb by putting leaving people's names in namelists or that he really isnt leaving. lol.

*please say that he's not going lehhhhhhhh*

pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease
pleasepleaseplease

umm, lol. but hey!

sry but i cant help but put these pics.









xiaomeimei, shao nu, auntie and amah sha shous. =)
*ahem* jasmine sha shou.

heh. so much for not making jasmine jealous. =DDD

ever felt like you were supposed to fall from a building, then someone brings you to a higher level and pushes you down?

you die a horrible death, worse than what was meant. maybe your eyeballs will pop out, your abdomen being ripped into 2 with all the steaming guts spilling out, blood gushing out like a super wet towel. or maybe your face is torn off, limbs at least 10m away from the torso. or maybe on the way of falling, you get caught between the bamboo poles, leaving you to hang there like nobosys business and let the blood drip bit by bit to your death, or maybe..

nevermind, im being sadistic here.

i dreamt abt you AGAIN. rawrrrrr.

story time! by me and jas. =D

im the green and jas is the orange. =)

longlong ago
in a faraway land
there lived a
girl
who wasnt a giraffe
but was a penguin
whose pet lion
is not a tiger
fell into a toilet bowl
and was flushed down
into a jet plane
and landed on someone's head
the person was maozhetong
he bombed
your comp and it exploded in my face
so i got it all over my face
then you spread it to me
and i spread peanut butter
and maple syrup
threw it down the gutter
then it landed on my head
i jumped down 20 storeys
you crashed on the floor
and died

THE END.

ahhhhhhh wheeee. was TOO BORED. muahaha.

and today, i went to marina sq with the aunties and BOUGHT A DRESS. the one i liked, my mum didnt like. so she bought another which i didnt like as much as the 1st white one (gawd, i loved it) but thats alright! new dresses!! (i only have one orange one and it looks hideous.) yay.

this is so un-weixin.

weixin doesn't buy dresses.
weixin doesn't go all colourful.
weixin doesn't like pink.
weixin doesn't use exclaimation marks! yeah!
weixin will never be contented with GPAs of 3.
weixin doesn't go all bimbo.
weixin doesn't get shy when *ahem* s are around.
weixin doesn't like shopping.
weixin doesn't wear makeup, inc eyeliner.
weixin doesn't enjoy being a girl.
weixin doesn't TRY not to say fuck.
weixin never gives in.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME???

holyfuck.

but thats alright, for some.

nights!

went to j8 with the aunties and the 2 brats 2dae. now the aunties are the ones saying, "faster choose, i want to go home alrdy!!" rather than me. muahaha. but we were only walking for a damned hr. just 1!!! (or was it more) i need to go out shopping with my friends more. (and my shoes cause feet to hurt more than theirs.)

speaking abt shoes, i hate going to shoe shops. because, being a vainpot as i am, heels are works of art. AND I CANT WEAR HEELS FOR NUTS. damn broad feet. or rather, i do severe injustice to them. BAHH.

it so sucks. =(

aniwae, my family was being a pain in the ass at diff times of the day.

mum and bros, in the mrt. critisizing abt eyeliner. BIG DEAL I LIKE TO WEAR EYELINER. and my mum being my mum, the topic of eyeliner drifted to everything else, inc strangers around us who were wearing eyeliner as well. -.- seriously, wtf. and my bro was rubbing everything in. nearly cried in the mrt, wtf.

then my dad was being an asshole, flaring up just coz i didnt finish a qn in the damned maths paper. and i needed reference frm the damned book!! so i got scolded, screamed at, shouted at, hit and caned. not that those matter that much, but his aiming is wonderful. one fucking cane mark landed on my face. (when anyone who touches my face WILL die) and so now i have a cut on my right cheek.

RAWR FUCK.

didnt think that that was worth putting colours on. =)

aniwae, some more interesting stuff.

JAS(: that empty feeling in me. says:
imagine weixin as a nerd

JAS(: that empty feeling in me. says:
imagine weixin not saying those words

JAS(: that empty feeling in me. says:
imagine weixin everyday go to sch at 6.30

=DDD

i would be so guai. =)

but that wont be weixin, would it?

if i wasnt me, and you werent you, would we still meet?

the most lame shit retarded thing happened to me last night.

i tied my fringe to the back, tied the rest up, and since i haven bathed yet i still had eyeliner on.

looked into the mirror and SCREAMED.

holyshit i looked like ju-on.

aniwae, my parents are back. and i opened the door like that. i guess i scared them MUAHAHHAHA.

i got new specs! red ones. =DDD <3!!

i so love them. =) aniwae, this is because i STEPPED ON MY GLASSES WHILE RUSHING OUT OF THE TOILET DRIPPING WET TO GET THE PIPE OF THE WASHING MACHINE INTO THE DRAIN BEFORE IT TURNS MY KITCHEN INTO A SWIMMING POOL.

so cool so cool. =DDD but this means no more contact lenses. GAHH.

went for lunch with liiiiiweeeeiiiiii. hurhur. lame shit retardedness.

was going to my grandma's house when my aunt said, "you look like barbie doll from afar."

*smacks head*

and it's so cool that it was raining because i got to use my white with silver polka dotted with silver lace umbrella. =D

if dreams could be entered by anyone, i think you did it on purpose.

Hold me
Hold me
Never let me go until you've told me
Told me
What I want to know and then just hold me
Hold me
Make me tell you I'm in love with you

Thrill me
Thrill me
Walk me down the lane where shadows will be
Will be
Hiding lovers just the same as we'll be
We'll be
When you make me tell you I love you
They told me, "Be sensible
With your new love.
Don't be fooled,
Thinking this is the last you'll find."
But they
Never stood in the dark with you, girl boy
When you take me into your arms
And drive me slowly out of my mind

Kiss me
Kiss me
When you do, I know that you will miss me
Miss me
If we ever say, "Adieu," so kiss me
Kiss me
Make me tell you I'm in love with you

Kiss me
Kiss me
When you do, I know that you will miss me
Miss me
If we ever say, "Adieu," so kiss me
Kiss me
Make me tell you I'm in love with you
Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go

ahh. the wonderful song of just love.

you do know it's for you, right?

went out with cindy 2dae. death note! (yes, i know thats like so long ago but still.) and i think i saw someone i know there in a SUIT. not that it's weird or what, but seeing someone in the middle of a shopping centre in a suit just cracks me up. no idea why. hmmmmmmmmmmm.

but guys look hot in suits whattttt. ahhhh ok nvm.

hormones get the better of me.

i LOVE. that guy with a super sweet tooth who obviously wears black eyeliner and gorges himself but NEVER gets fat although it's all those sweet puddings, chocolate and sweets he's eating. BAH.

and the black and white thing is getting on my nerves. and this so the new blog pic and colourful words. =)

i feel like a PRINCESS. no idea why. =)

Ohoh, and i HAVENT finished my homework yet. and my parents are coming back TOMORROW. i am so screwed. 70++ pages of phys and maths. siiiigh.

one more thing.

THANK YOU MR RODNEY SER. =) for helping with the BLOG PICTURE which the noobie me was having a hell lot of weird trouble with the GREEK-LOOKALIKE javascript. (hey, i dont call anyone mr, miss or mrs easily, you know. =D)

but this remains black and white.

I AM HEARTBROKEN.

and im saying that just coz i feel like it. =)

tml not going out with kev and lw anymore.

damn CCA commitments and IC.

and he didnt go for OBS after all. =)

put my hand in yours and we'll walk the world over.

i thought i would be happy.

but instead when i said bye, and you said bye,
i started crying.

oh yesh. the 50 things i want to do by the end of nxt yr.

whoo~

1) be a mugger! i want to mug! and mug! and mug!
2) mug and successfully get all the stuff into my head la.
3) increase my current pathetic bowling av by at least 30. *looks hopefully*
4) get at least 3 for my damned GPA. =)
5) and of coz, lose those extra fats so i can see my muskles. (even though i think it'll be horrible with all the manly lines and all) =D
6) get at least a freaking B for 2.4
7) stop looking for out for hot/cute guys. *will try, will try*
8) clean up my vocab. *will try too*
9) be nicer to the people around me even though i dont like them
10) not qurallel with my parents as much
11) start paying attn in class
12) start doing my damned hw
13) abolish the late night mugging and mug in sch
14) stop doing reports at 2300 when the report is due at 2359
15) not munch on little biscuits i find in the kitchen when i feel like it
16) run at least 4 times a wk (with pe taking up 2, this isnt a problem. =))
17) take the time out to go to the fujitsu place and repair my speakers
18) forget him. somehow. even if it means hitting my head against the wall til i bleed.
19) convince my parents to let me wear contacts
20) convince my mum to let me go pierce my ears again. 5 more.
21) get my wmp fixed
22) stop being so blur (somehow)
23) stop lying to myself
24) stop giving in to temptation
25) stop telling people im alright when im not
26) stop being addicted to pain (but hey! it's feels great!)
27) stop saying words i dont mean
28) stop being a mean and sarcastic bitch
29) figure out trigo and be able to do trigo qns without referring to the formulas.
30) remove all temptation to chop off my hair like what i did last yr.
31) be more organised
32) brush up my chinese. more like relearn chinese.
33) be more patient
34) stop having a memory span of 10 seconds
35) figure out why i have people adding me on msn when they are living somewhere called adeliane or smth like that.
36) run in the rain
37) not scream loudly whenever some random boliao thing happens
38) save up $$!!!39) not lose my stuff like i always do
40) cut back on whining. XP
41) be able to do a standard guy pull up!
42) and do the male push ups. (tsk. elbow injuries are so irritating.)
43) quit telling everyone that maths is love! because we all know it isnt.
44) be nicer to that cuz of mine. THAT cuz. THAT one.
45) quit making jasmine jealous abt my lil bro. =)
46) dance. properly.
47) convince my mum i need to dye my hair. (i do, i do.)
48) stop being so sick in the head. heh. BANG. (i dont think i'll be working for this.)
49) stop spending money like free like that. haha.
50) and finally, no more list 50 things nxt yr.

omg. im finally done with it.

=)

how was it?

back from my cuz's 21st bdae party. woohoo~!

gay and fun, with her friends. her dad was being rather interesting, with that cannot blow out candle thing and hinting to her friends to throw her into the pool. XD

and yeah, with family, of coz. =)

<3 my new earrings. make me feel so expensive. lalala. and there goes the ear sticks. haha.

monday, going to bowl. tues, going out with shrompy. (right?) wed, going out with darling lw, kef and irah. =DDD thurs got last music lesson.

how packed can my hols get? (eh. i only get holidays when my parents are away, kae? which is not very often, trust me.)

and i'll be home alone with my cuzs who are mugging. dang.

ahh. 2dae's saturday 18th nov. the day where the TA2s come back frm OBS. *ahem*

yixuannie's only coming back frm australia on the 20th. i want my koala bear! XD

ok, im slpy, and the 50 things i want to do by the end of 2007 list is more than half done! whooo~!

nites!

<3!

A- Anyone you kissed?:
guess?

B- Band you are listening to right now:
none, actually.

C- 1st Crush:
that coconut lor. =) (jas will know)

D- Dad's name:
weng chow

E- Easiest person to talk to:
JAS!

F- Favorite ice cream:
chocolate, chocolate chip, chocolate, chocolate and chocolate!

G- Gummy worms or gummy bears:
both.

H- Hometown:
venus.

I- Instruments:
Piano

J- Junior high:
TJ.

K- Kids:
YES!! haha.

L- Longest car ride ever:
8hr long bus ride to genting.

M- Mom's name:
Serene.

N- Nicknames:
xinn.

O- One wish:
what else other than to score super well and top the damned sch?

P- Phobia[s]:
me =X

Q- Quote:
maths is love!

R- Reason to smile:
im dropping music. (is that smilable?)

S- Song you sang:
somewhere over the rainbows (me first and the gimme gimmes. i love their version.)

T- Time you woke up today:
11am

U- Unknown fact about me:
i have a 6 pack under my fats. im not kidding. =)

V- Virgin:
of coz not. =P

W- Worst habit:
i flirt unintentionally.

X- X-rays you've had:
1, and that was for my teeth. back teeth are crooked. bah.

Y- Your least favorite person as of right now:
chue chuanyi the bastard.

Z-Zodiac sign:
aquarius.

i think i make it very obvious that im bored.

1)brand of ur handphone?
nokia

2) what would you do if you see your bf/gf hugging a boy/girl?
if he's hugging a guy, i wont mind. but if he's hugging a girl, he's toast.

3) have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
sadly, no boyfriend. but tons of girlfriends. =)

4) have ur own room?
yepps. =)

5) favourite pet?
i always wanted a white tiger, but i guess i'll settle with a king cobra that wont bite me. =)

6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?
music. peppered with tons of bass and drums. and electric guitars.

7) where do u live?
in a spaceship based in venus

8) what would you do if someone tells you he/she likes you?
that will depend if i like him anot la. results will differ.

9) how are you feeling now?
pissed off.

10) where do you hangout?
somewhere.

11) what are you good at?
stoning.

12) what is it about a person you cant stand?
being really petty, unforgiving and abusing of authority.

13) what do you want?
things you cant give me.

14) a word that describes you?
random.

15) what is your dream?
i dreamt that i put on braces.

16) day or night?
night. and inbetween.

17) sunset/sunrise?
both. except im usually slping at sunrise.

18) like a romantic boyfriend/girlfriend?
yes please. =)

19) what is it about the opposite gender tt attracts you?
must i list it all out?

20) are you an independent person?
you think leh?

21) do you like school?
sometimes. someone made me love it, but now he's gone.

22) are you stubborn?
yepps.

23) believe in God?
somewhat

24) ur favourite sports?
bball.

25) believe in fate?
abit.

26) get pissed off easily?
depends on who the person is.

27) like your parents?
not alot.

29) believe in love?
a little.

30) will u get a tattoo?
a barcode behind the ear sounds interesting.

31) will you forgive ur bf/gf if she/he cheats on u?
nope.

32) will you expect your boyfriend/girlfriend to forgive u?
nope either. but that wont happen.

33) were u on a trip recently?
nope. haven fallen for quite a while.

34) fave country?
s'pore and somethingland.

35) are u impatient?
more or less.

36) do u organise parties often?
nope.

37) do u have good friends?
yepps. =)

38) do u think you are good-looking?
everyone's gorgeous, just that they dont wanna face it.

39) do u care about looks?
yeah

40) do you quarrel with people easily?
yes, and thats a bad habit.

41) are you forgiving?
yes, though

42) do you get hurt easily?
yes, just that i dont show it.

43) do u prefer men/women with long/short hair?
females, with long hair. guys, no ponytails pls. a tail is sexy though. =D

44) is ur hair colored?
it's white.

45) do you wear a watch?
nope.

46) what color clothes do you like?
any colours that dont make me look like a traffic light.

47) will you chose love or money?
both.

48) do you prefer sleep or eat?
sleep.

49) white or black?
both.

50) pink or red?
red! then pink comes nxt. =)

51) fav flower?
blood red roses.

52) do u hate her?
yeah.

53) if u dun like talking to tt person what will u do?
just shut up or critize like shit.

ahhh! the quizzes are over! ohno. back to severe boredom. =(

yes. got into a fight with that gay fag of a shit named chuechuanyi and he grabbed my hp and started smsing 'u sux' to random pple. im just glad he didnt sms the tchrs. phew.

now i really need someone to gossip with.

music lesson later, and it caused me to not go out with kev and lw. BOO. =(

why couldnt it be you instd?

!!

i just realised that the last post was the 300th post!

happy 300th post, my blog. =)

aniwae, super sian right now. i so suck at linear laws and trigo. BAH.

so meaning, im stuck at those exercises with linear laws, trigo and sets. RAWR. this is so irritating.

but what else can be more irritating than that stupid little brat? not exactly little, but yeah.

it's the 15th of nov. and i want to come up with a new yr resolution list for nxt yr.

i will do that after the maths! (motivation!)

because i intend to make it a 50 things to do thing.

=)

tml's the last day with maths. i swear i want a breakup if (s)he doesnt do away with those irritating problems like linear laws, trigo and sets.

O great serene, your deep and through understanding of the linear laws have greatly enlightened me. *ke tou*

=D

it's really difficult.

IM BORED. again.

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, ask 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

there.

oh and i just exploded an egg in the microwave this morning.

*boom*

just like how i went.

whoo. one more day til maths completion!

yesh, aniwae, i came across this poem. hmm.

He grabbed me around my slender neck
I could not call or scream.
He dragged me to my dingy room
where we could not be seen.

He tore away my flimsy wrap
and gazed upon my form.
I was so cold and damp and scared
while he was dry and warm.

He pressed his feverish lips to mine
I could not make him stop.
He drained me of my inner self
I gave him every drop.

Then he cast me from his side
so now you see me here.
An empty bottle thrown away
that once was full of beer.

tsk. what were you pple thinking.

the lazy me decided to do 5km ytd and now i have a blister on my foot. a budding blister. bahh.

=)

smile.

yeah. the class posting for '07 is out.

im in 2F06. hi guys.

yes, im supposed to be thrilled and all, but..

I'LL MISS TRISH, RACH AND OF COZ, SHROMPY!!! =(

ok yeah. them aside, my class sounds quite..

rate it yourself.

cxm, yanting, catherine, joel tong, nat, shimon, ernest, glen, xz, kelly, dacheng, zuoqi, wenqi, yichen, rachel, luping, daryl, huangwei, junya, cheryl julia, kimberly, xiuwen

a couple of highlighted names, and yeah.

oh, they listed joel tong as female. so now i have 14 girls and 9 guys in my class. XD.

i couldnt see yours.

<3!

lalala.

i need to reschedule my hol plans. daddy wants me to finish all my maths by the 16th of nov. siannnnnnn. after all that planning..

the very smart me now has a bruise on my forehead because the damned bamboo pole dropped on my head when i was hanging the clothes. BAH.

ok i feel super punctuationless and like this is more or less getting on my nerves

ahh heck.

so i spent the 2nd day slacking away. whee. and right now im obsessed in shopping in neopets coz i get to HAGGLE THE PRICE. MUAHAHHAA. shopkeepers' nightmare. whee~

supposed to go swim just now, but after talking to serene abt certain stuff and certain stuff were brought up, i didnt swim. no more mood. hmmmmmmm.

jiayou to me and serene!!! hee heee.

oh yeshyeshyesh. when i was on my way back to the car from the beach, i saw this UBER CUTE little toddler with his kor kidding around. my little babee cuz is UBER CUTE, esp when she starts posing for cameras unintentionally. this UBER CUTE little babee boiboi was looking around with his big wonderous eyes in the bus. and the totally innocent replies little kids have to situations just leave me speechless.

holy shit.

I WANT A LITTLE KID!!! (inc a nanny ploz)

ohmygaaawwwwd. someone whack my head. NOWWWWWWWWW!!!!!

babies make me think of marriage. marriage makes me think of dating, which makes me think of.. AHH FORGET IT WEIXIN STOP THINKING ABOUT THESE THINGS RAWRRRR. it's getting irritating, isnt it?

ok. yeah.

HI SHROMPY. *waves to the shrompy at my tagboard* hee hee.

=)

this sucks.

that strange empty feeling is back. except this time it's different.

even worse, it's diverting my concentration. noooo i want to do maths.

ever had a time where your heart says yes, but your mind says no?

RAWR.

maybe this wasnt what i wanted.

i figured that i needed to give myself a break, so here's my hol schedule! ok, for nov.

2dae's the 7th, so we start from the 8th.

8- maths ex 2E, ex 1C
9- ex 1D, music hw
10-ex 3C, 3D
11-ex 4C, 4D
12-ex 4E, 5A
13- ex 5B, 8A
14- ex 8C
15-specimen paper 1 mid yr
16- spec paper 1 (cont) mid yr and music hw
17- EOY spec paper 1
18- EOY spec paper 2
19- finish up anything else left behind for maths
20- PARTY
21- PARTY
22- PARTY
23- PARTY and music hw
24- study phys
25- study phys
26- study phys
27- study phys
28- study phys
29- study phys
30-study phys and music hw

holy shit. the hols are only halfway and im lacking stuff to do. sian.

i am determined to focus on training and studies. ONLY. no, no more guys. i'll be guy free for a yr, damn you. as in, no more crazing over those hot guys. haha. kai can be the exception though. =) lol.

and basically to go train in whatever i want in the spare time.

ok, so it's to prevent the holiday emptiness which i always get. only that this time it'll be a worse one. sooooo. packed in with maths! and phys! and chem (i'll get the notes lalala)

rawr, depression, go away. i'll combat you with numbers, muahahaha.

now look at what you've done.

went for the class outing 2dae!

so 10pple turned up. =) more than what i expected though. hahaha.

went to play with the sand with shrompy coz everyone was stoning while waiting for samuel, zq and the prcs. heh.

shrompy managed to convince me to go rollerblading with them, so went rollerblading with shrompy and samuel. hefei and qilong are pro for heavens sake. haha. think rolling backwards on those humps. heh. i think i can skate 10m without nearly falling over. =) shrompy jiayou! you skate very well for a 1st timer, really.

woohoo, i have scratches on my legs=) deco, eh? hee hee. nvm.

so thats the end of 1c06, i guess. the most unbonded class ever. =) *pops a champagne* a toast to that. i'll miss the trouble making times. =)

after that, went to pp mac with shrompy. whee~ hurhur shrompy. apple pies and jealous eyes. whoo, it rhymes! =)

you stupid self centred fucked up bitch. what the fuck is your problem?! (ah, if you think it's you, then it's your problem lor=) to confirm, ask me. duh! haha.)

*poof*

oh yes. it's tues alrdy. whee hee hee.

asked my parents just now if i could go for the class outing. they said YES. omg. they said yes, for heavens sake. it's like, they forbade me from going coz of blablabla reason, and now, they said YES. heh.

tips for trying to persuade your parents to let you go out:
coop yourself at home, be totally irritating like poking your bro for fun until he starts screaming," MUMMY", do your work, then the day b4 the outing, ask nicely. whee.

transferred tons of songs over to cy's lappie. =) whee. stupid speakers. heh.

i finished the paper 2 of set A! =)

i realised that to get rid of headaches, go for a long long walk to nowhere at all at night. go ALONE (and of coz have the common sense to walk close to the main road). i had one ytd and 2dae. ytd went with cy. talked cock. felt soooooo damned much better after that. 2dae, went with mummy. tell you, the headache got worse. hmm.

rudebox is nice. =)

all i did, wasnt what i thought i would do.

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or might have been (or might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day (the one I think about each day)
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Ooooooohh yeah

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it should be now or might have been (might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day (the one I think about each day)
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing (and funny thing)
No matter how I try and try I just can't say good-bye

No, no, no, no

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say)
You're the one I think about each day (the one I think about each day)
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you

Ooooooohh

ah, sry. couldnt help it. heh.

sat was a boringly interesting day. was being depressed for nearly the whole day. haha. ohwells. better snap out of it though. it's a sad thing to be depressed. =)

and today, i finally got into my do hw mode! whoo maths!! lol.

but of coz. you know. the usual. sigh.

i cant say it.

watching my lovely samsoon now.

wish i had a guy like zhen xuan. =) so damned sweet. <3!

if he was mine. lalala. hahaha.

from where im sitting now, i can hear the cries of a guy who is being harshly nagged at and beaten by his parents. lets just say it came from the nxt block and i can hear it damn clearly, inc those cane sounds. mygosh. and his mum's nagging. yeah. mygosh. someone call the police, we have a case of child abuse with a cane and motormouth high pitched nagging.

and i hate it when my parents screen me.

so im at setA maths hw. =) i feel guai. qn10 liao. haha. i really feel so guai.

ok, i shall go to the lib with shrompy later. then we'll be mac campers for a while. =)

and i still feel like shit. thanks arh, for making me feel like this with just a few little gestures.

the power you possess to move a heart like that.

damn the mad race to the top.

so students nowadays can be considered as race horses, eh? when the winning horse of your pride fails, it gets killed off. hmm. so you think im proud of my results eh? whatever. thats what you think, but dont use that on me.

funny, how results of a child, has been evolving from just getting good results to secure a good job, to being a kind of winning tile for the parents to stick their face into in the society? it is understandable to be kiasu, but at the child's expense? you ought to know, it's a different century altogether.

yeah. aniwae, im on some friendster craze, adding all sorts of people whom i know, partially know, and probably dont know. O.o

yesh. aniwae, tues was a rather fun day.
of coz it was fun, i saw him. the last time i'll ever see him.
went to sch at 8 sharp (woohoo) and waited for the principal's talk thing. sat outside the audi under LT2, got shocked at the amt of maths hw we had over the hols, whined about my painful jaw, and realised that every single piece of paper that passes thru my hands get crumpled. lol.
someone tell me why he was staring. =)
and smth else that made me get all jumbled up again.
someone tell me why he walked over.
and lotsa people had their haircuts too!! whee~ im not the only one there with weird hair done by retarded hairdressers!
someone tell me why he was there.
got back our results. it sucks, duh. then went with the bosengers and a couple of not bosengers for a boseng outing. LOL. basically, we were supposed to go watch a movie at marina square. but we went to macs and bowled instd. 133, with a house ball. seh. LOL.
that weird empty feeling i had when the bus pulled off, away from sch.
then went off with shrompy to go window shopping and tried on clothes. LOL. i think the shop owners were rather pissed with us. haha. too bad. saw this incredibly hot suit (yesh, it has a tie. LOL.)
imagine how good he would look in it.
then went to pp mac to read our lib books. a lil birdie told us where us where someone's someone was, lalala. not mine, of coz. saw cass there (my senior). saw her there the day b4 too! lol! mac campers -.-
why did he look into my eyes?
went home, got a helluva thrashing frm my parents. bah. no one shld think that i am proud of this disgusting results i have and think that i brag abt it. please. wtf.

wed was stupidly boring. apart from receiving a call frm mr see that i hadda go see missy loke the nxt day. fuck.

thurs. dental appointment in the morning, dentist said, nothing much to do with the molars, so, TAADAA. no braces. =) stupid dentist who referred me twice there. HAHA. then went to see missy loke. well, it was shit, duh. but thanks to the tissue box in her office. not that i used a lot of tissues (just one, really), but, just the bright yellow box that stopped me frm crying due to some printed stuff on it. ask me and you'll know why. =) and his name was apparently echoing in my head throughout the whole thing, mebbe coz it was the only thing that stopped me frm letting those damned tears flow.
passed by the place where he looked at me. my eyes.
music was great. really. although there wasnt wind 2dae and it's rather weird coz it's like the sea's view and 20 storeys high, no wind is weird. hmm.
why did he do that?
rawr. thats how i feel right now.

was talking lotsa rubbish to rod, jas and trish at abt 7 plus. and like, i think i really need to get a grip on myself. a serious one. gahhhh it's difficult with him swimming in your head, you know.

it's only been 2 days, and im missing you like mad.