whoops did I say it out loud,

im bi. inbetween is ideal. (private joke)

TRAINING WAS COOOOOOOOOOL PLEASE. :D ahh we should have more sessions like this whee hee hee! (no extra lunges on the nxt round MUAHAHA) me chris and jerome (new dsa) were in same team and us playing a game as a team and sth like that and YEAH MAN WE WONNNNNN :D but abit funny ah, both guys in my team both dsas, then if go gutter damn malu T_T :D

and today my ball damn funny. speed gone. rev decreased. no more power. O_O nightmare man. haha. thumb pain again. the.. hand joint thing. haha. die liao. no need to bowl alr. X(

and i lost my malaria pills. good job weixin. good job.

bowling camp planning was fun. but i damn extra. haha. ohman. but the camp sounds fun. apart from the.. intense part.

yx: mr ng wants intense. (when i pointed out that.. well, that it was really intense.)

me: mr ng runs in pants?

daryl: mr ng wants pants?

yx: -_-

never talk w your mouth full :D and i ended up feeding yx lunch. wth LOL. HAHA. where got chen ji. chen ji also dont chen ji you right HAHAHAHHAA XD

went to buy cups and towels (but of course we didnt, so, well.) ended up at kiddy palace. do you know how ridiculous it is to have 6 bananas and 5 bags that look suspicious going OMG THE CUP SO CUTE in the middle of kiddy palace? anyway, YAH THE CUP DAMN CUTE OK. I WANT!

chris is gay.

daryl has a gay relationship. (internal joke. and it's internal because i dont wanna say it. here, at least.)

im gay.

yx is gay.

we both like guys so we're gay.

no im kidding. we're happy so we're gay.

my super gay keychain. or phone chain. imagine that on my pink phone please. (:

excuse me while i go admire my phone and keychain/phonechain for awhile. byebye.

ok im back.

you know, the mudpie and berry dunno what mcflurry thing? it's just the sundae with oreos. knn tio cheated. then at macs there was this baby who kept looking at us having the $%^&* icecream. ahh so cute ok! then of course, play w him abit la. you know, the usual. then we were like, daryl you dont like kids ah. then he was like, ok la, and he go and look at the mother. -__-ll

ok la. (another private joke. haa.)

over, over

bodynits does not sell bodies. private joke. (:

bought a damn gay keychain. i mean, phone chain. haha. but too bad 6288 doesnt have the place to hang it T_T ahh so sad ok!

ok, so, the brother found his charger. in my cupboard. like wtf. hello, if i kept it there, i would charge my phone 1st right? and it's just retarded la. so the bitch kept accusing me, which i know, all evidence point to me guilty, but who's that dumb to hide the charger and have her own phone flat? (he) raised a storm, etc etc, big fight, etc etc, (oh god that stingy bastard. im sorry i even lent him my stuff.) so in the end the mother threw it down the rubbish chute. :D

and im suprisingly happy about that. :D apart from the fact that that bitch hit my arm. its ok! i drink milk! (in other words, i have strong bones. haha.)

ANYWAY, back to today! went w sonia to the bodynits sale. yeah, bodynits sold the swimsuit i bought for 69.55 at the price of 20. AHHHHHHH. T_T same design and material somemore. AHHHH. i feel cheated. boo.

then walked over to expo to the john little sale and tried to look for shoes and bags. and the nail art stickers. none, duh. the money still in my wallet ok. haha. then then then! omg lol. we were looking for the mrt when sonia put her arm around me, and this guy walking in the opposite direction (i.e. walking towards us), gave us that LOOK. HAHA omg la. then later on pass alr, when he was somewhere behind me, i turned to see if he would look back. HE DID LEH. HAHA. omg funny funny. :D his omg-lesbians-on-the-loose look was SO FUNNY OK. HAHAHAHAHA!

tired. i shall go audi. byebye (:

"oops i touched that kid's lollipop!"

thats AMORE. (:

I'm in love.

(that's amore - james marsden)

For lips are the only things that touch.

headache. no idea why. must be from the 4 hr sleep and rude awakening. hahaha.

sulked the entire journey to breakfast (because it was obvious that i was going to be late for training, and they had to PURPOSELY put the damned appointment this morning. and like its open in the afternoon too. and it's not even a prebooked appointment. you just go there and register and have the appointment there and then. retarded.) so basically, was being a total AP bitch and god, was i depressed. haha. see, thats why you should never wake me up. unless you're my alarm clock. (or phone.) lol.

took the TB injection. no idea why, they said it was just a skin test, then they injected me w sth -_- im so sure thats like skin man. haha.

training was ok, i guess. apart from butt's flying ball. heh.

went to tm to get gen's prez and went to watch 'Enchanted' w LW! WHOOOO YEAHHH!

oh man i love this song so so much! (((((((:



i shant spoil it for you, but this scene was so romantic. haha.

HAHA and lw bought this ULTRA PINK wallet for me. HAHAHA. which reminds me, her prez is still rotting in my cupboard. wont say whats inside til it's w her. haha. but i must say, it was pretty embarrassing to buy it. haha. :D

today damn unlucky can! my bro's charger DISAPPEARED like LITERALLY (oh fuck) so my phone is totally flat now, and house keys pulled the disappearing act. AGAIN. gahh. T_T

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye

can't stop wanting you

this is so not happening ok.

its supposed to be over like O-V-E-R.
like done, gone, missing, absent, finished.

nightmare, round 2.

training tomorrow, and im going to be a zombie. wish me luck.

heal a broken heart. please.

Is it all it seems?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

today was super fun zomg lol.

went out to somewhere in toa payoh to check out a couple of beds for the brothers coz they are sick of pulling the mattress from the bottom of the other bed and thus want a bunk bed. ANYWAY, pictures of a really cool sofa from there.

stupid self timer -__-

brother 1.

brother 1 + brother 2.

the sofa is fucking huge can!

anyway, we went to buy a new bike coz the old one is rusting and threatening to fall apart, then we went to the beach to rollerblade!

i swear, the little brother is a natural. he just skated for the 1st time yesterday, and today, he zoomed past me -__-

skate halfway back and i called elis and DAMN she cant take leave T_T

but anyway it was a good talk. HEHE. shh private info (:

since the skates were rented for 2 hours, i passed my mum the skates for the last half hr coz my right foot was hurt like shit. sole problem again. sighh. ANYWAY, cycled to the cable ski thing, and guess who i saw?

chen jian bin and the guy whom i forgot the name but my mum calls him alamak. HAHA. (so sad not elvin ng T_T)

not a big deal, but i saw them yesterday as well.

i bet chen jian bin was thinking that i was stalking him la. -______-

went to long beach for dinner and the chili crab was gooooooooood :D

pics!

oops, caught in the act.

again. X)

mummy and daddy!

when asked to pose something not just that, (maybe a kiss or sth) they were like, nono, private. -__-

my little brother is so cute.

see?

oh yeah. the damn cool dessert. (literally. anyway, anything that includes dry ice is cool please.)

dry ice is so fucken cool please.

we saw LIVE TIGER-S. (hahahahaha)

actually it's some live tiger sea-mantis or something like that.

and the 2 'air flown alaskan king crab' kept TRYING to escape their tank. but of course fail la. poor things. but i swear, they are like, stupid. they dont know how to let one stand on top of the other and escape. their legs are like so damn long and it's so close to the edge and let it climb out, but of course, THEY DONT KNOW WHAT TEAMWORK IS. HAHAHA. ok idiots, get eaten.

close(r) up on the little brother.

me + boring car ride home + camera phone with flash = zomgwtfbbq act cute buey cute camWHORE.

ok stop acting cute. bleaugh.

haha ecp has alot of damn cute guys please :D

ANYWAY. moving on..

plans for bowling.

-buy spare ball

-buy bag

-train with spare ball until twisted comes to sg (:

fun right. haha. anything to stop the thumb from dislocating again. :D

It's too late to apologize

finally got the date promised 2 years ago and we forgot to take pictures. -_- i love you too hun!

training was ok i guess, apart from nearly dislocating the thumb, but thankfully the muscle pulled it back in place. bloody span problem. oh twisted, please be in sg ASAP. i dont care how, miraculously appear tomorrow or something. ):
imafuckenterritorialbitch.dontplaywithwhatsmine.
means alot for a song to be replayed for a few hours.

mummy's birthday tomorrow! and 5th aunt's! and gen's! and elyn! (lol, alot leh.)

to think, to date i havent found someone with my birthdate. (:

times

"roses are red,
violets are blue
you may not know it,
but someone loves you"

-princess diaries

something else

forgot to add in the previous post.

since i was at the beach right, im like super lucky/sway ok. like there are a thousand and one (more than that.) people walking around, and im the only person who gets splat with bird shit on my arm. -_-

the pleasure of sucking! (:

still believing you'll walk through my door

happy birthday da jie!

feet pain. head pain. hand pain. sole pain. eye pain. butt pain. heart pain.

had this ultra long walk at the beach again, and the kuku me decided to step into the water. with my open wounds. ouch.

pictures of the beautiful sunset today. not that it's really stellar or whatever, just that it's just one of the nicer ones that singapore has. and i happen to be there. haha. (the timeline's like the other way round/jumbled up. ahh.)

zomg i got legs that rival daryl! whoo!

sorry. im just really tired. doesnt help that im depressed again.

oh yeah. and i collectd my Ti-84 silv ed alr. haha. im like the last person to go collect. hurhur. (:

promise me you'll try

i swear, facebook is getting funner by the day. no such word as funner, but who the hell cares anyway(((:

there was sth i wanted to blog about, but now i cant rmb.

oh yeah. sleeping guys are just so adorable. (((((((: <3>

haha eye candy. :D

exciting at 1st, then ends up in a disaster.

finally, something that suits my mood just fine.

s. 14 op. 27 no. 2
(taken off coz i was too tired to replace the link)


then this one by i forgot the name. lol.



anyway, "pathetique movement" is a very nice song too. yeah i know, the sudden beethoven thing. haha. FARRRRRRRRNIE AH. im just putting this here for reference when i get the chance to download the songs. haha. dont mind. (:


training was the shitzxzszxz again. ass pain like shit. haha. and there's nothing much that can be changed or is wrong with me, until i change the ball. which will be after i finish my math homework. T_T. ahh i want my ball balllllllll ))))): but then again, must wait until it come out 1st. haha. twisted fury!


sibeh chio.

then i want this spare ball!



supergirl!

but then again, for spare, i'll probably end up buying the cheapest in the shop because after all, IT'S JUST A SPARE BALL. :D HAHA.

team had exco meeting today, then me and val extra (or at least, me.) go and tag along. but it's interesting. very interesting indeed. then halfway start talking about silicone implants. haha. retarded ok.

what else..

oh yeah. i am not lesb with yx. i just miss holding hands in public. haha.

and i've been really exhausted these few days. must be the lunges. haha.

mr hurricane! :D

but if we stay together..

disgusted.

but ANYWAY, my ass hurts like hell. haha.

ok whatever.

Because if you don't believe me, you wouldn't be here.

How would you know how it feels like to love someone with all your heart and at the same time, knowing that all that happens is just a break up and everything else would just be a distant memory?

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you're hurt too

but what else can we do, tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart

For times when my life seems so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you?

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home

Away from these long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too

Does the feeling seem oh so right

And what would you say if I called on you now

And said that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone,

I'll be gone...

when in doubt, ask my brother

im like the best cook on earth please.
my brother said the spag and sauce that i just cooked out of boredom was like GOOOOOD. WHOOOOO!
(he's a fucking picky eater. esp when it comes to garlic.)

quick, yixuan, hire me as your cook!

elaine said: my phone spoilt ytd and the warranty ended ytd.

HEHE.

roffle. heh heh laugh laugh laugh

baby watch me fly!

ZOMG I SURVIVED!

OBMOBMOBMOBMOBMOBM WHOOOOOO BUBU ROCKSSSSSSS :D instructor FAUZI! haha faye haha fauzi hahaha OK NEVERMIND :D and co instructors ODA and RENSKA!

fayechengfengizyanvalerieminyunluxijiajinkeithglenchanglongfangxiongnicholasgohyuhang!

and bunkmates (girls in the group inc watch) peiyizhenyidawnrimikoxiongweiyunrugwen!
and the other guys in the group(camah) clarencexzzhihaodachenghuangweijpjoeltong

HAHA damn it was fun man! esp the shopping part :D but since i thought that i was going back to msia again, i didnt spend much, but now im not going back so NO MORE SHOPPING FOR ME T_T damn should have bought more stuff. haha.

much love to the girls and the girls dorm (and maybe this includes jp under the girl part..), like screaming randomly and screaming somemore when monkeys pass by and screaming again just for the heck of it :D

i survived:
about 25km of kayaking
bandung leak in the middle of kayaking
climbing the mountain
shitty ankle on 1st day of trekking :D
diarrhoea before trekking
more than 70 mozzie bites
1 leech
bloody cold water
not bathing for 2 nights (not in a row)
sleeping in a tent
ant infestation
puking and giddyness in the middle of a mozzie infested place
halfcooked rice (im not complaining, really. i appreciate it. haha (((:)
blisters on the foot
$%^&*( long busride there in an uncomfortable coach
rashes

i got away from:
sunburns :D
2nd day of trekking because if i took another step i think i'd have hurled my entire digestive system out. come to think of it, i should have just hurled 'em out. haha.

the people in my watch are fun. totally man. like ROFL and YOU GUYS ALLLLLLLL SUCK :D

beaboyday. HAHA.

then on the way back the 1st bus tire punchek -_- so we waited for them at this totally boring place w nothing to shop, walking up and down aimlessly and drinking iced teh tarik :D

the scenery there was really great. like totally. beautiful. but i just didnt stay for the shooting stars. bloody mozzies. sad right. haha.

god i just like, didnt use my phone for 10 days! :D

anw for the ending we did 3 songs, under the sun (under the sea), in the jungle and chan mali chan.

hush my fauzi, dont cry my fauzi
this song is just for you
and to renska and darling oda
we'll be lost w/o you

(((:

cicak!

and ahgong get well soon. must get well soon. must must must. ):

bye.

zomg i cant stand it i have no idea why i even bother about you right now; it's not like im obliged to, i just am. maybe it's pent up stress from this, or else i dont know what to call it. honestly, why can't you keep your word? i know, you didnt expect this to happen, but it wouldnt have if you just did. seriously.

anyway it's not for me to tell you what to do, what to say, what to think, but please, spare a thought for me. you did, we all knew it. but that is like the exact opposite of what you're doing right now.

god im so confused now i can't even play my sudoku. bye.

it feels like im in love with someone i can't have all over again. and that is very wrong. because that's not supposed to happen. esp not in this. not this case, not this time.but i guess i can put all the blame on you. or not.
or maybe we could just talk.
and you have no idea how many times i threw you into the CBC.

as we go on

HELLO (:

this is probably the last time im blogging as me, before i go for OBM.
(i kinda expect some changes after that. after all, i paid good money.)

my mum says hi,next time do nnot read her blog its nonsense

yes mum typed that la. seriously. haha. (so much for being motherproof. she wanted to see the blog, but of course, NOOOOOOO.) and everytime she pressed a key i thought the keyboard was going to break.

anyway back to the topic. or whatever's left of it.

oh yeah. im bring this super large like $%^&* suitcase. repeat, SUITCASE. the one you bring on holidays. haha. yeah right i wish i was holidaying on the coast, instead of doing something really -_- in it.

feel really bugged right now. the same ol' depression. you know, you know.

of all good days to have the time of the month, i have it right before the obm itself. i am so not interested in changing in the middle of the jungle ok. and what if there are sharks in the sea T_T

and i sincerely hope ahkong will get well soon. must. must must must. im serious. please god, let that whatever growth it is go away miraculously and none thereafter. you have no idea what you're pushing at.

im depressed. horribly depressed.

so depressed im nauseous. i feel like throwing up everything. is there like, mental regurgitation?

i miss bowling. ):
i am so not ready for obm.

(ps. heard the grad song just a few moments ago and everything's flooding back.)

its the time of the year.

and wish me luck. im sorry the last post is so choppy and really random, but im sorry, maybe i'll be back later. who knows.

XOXO justin baby. haha.

I shall look for a motto

HELLO SWEETHEARTS (:

i've been procastinating the blog posts and letting the dick in the box run for 293857203875 times. stating the obvious, i know.

you know why mother starts with a letter M? same letter as Machine gun. fires at will, can't stop at 1 bullet.

anyway, what else has been up. audition! HAHA. and going out too. tired though. really tired. i dont know how im going to survive obm at this rate. can't slp til 3am, wake up at 10 plus. haha. im dying. T_T

nothing to blog about, the mother gun has been firing again.

微笑再美再甜不是你的都不特别

sundaysundaysunday. what else can i say about today?

ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY ZERO NOTHING (:

and that was basically everything about today.

oh and audition.
and mario.
and ray. (game)

how could i forget.
JUSTIN (((:

/Starry eyed suprise

AUDITION!
ok, the only reason why i play it for so long when the people i know arent playing is because:
I GET TO GO SHOPPING FOR MY AVATAR ZOMG WHOO!
earn more DEN! :D DEN DEN DEN then can go SHOPPAAAYYYYINGGGG. all the pretty pretty ones that in real life they cost 23049823094823095725 bucks D:

im repetitive. so what. (((:

dang i need to go back to the optical shop for another casing for the contacts when i dont want to dunk them into HYDROGEN PEROXIDE. goodness. fking hell H2O2 ok. since when was it a safe liquid anyway.
(ok so the company that manufactures it puts it as safe la.)
anyway, it's used for BLEACHING paper, hair, keeping fungus control on FISH EGGS (zomgwtf) and treating waste water/products/whatever it is on wiki

NOW I CAN TELL MY MUM THAT I CAN GO BLEACH HAIR COZ IT'S THE SAME PRODUCT WHOO YEAH!

no point using the same thing in your eyes and then say it's dangerous for the hair (((:

excuses, excuses

today wasnt much. and my feet hurt.

HAAAA.

so i forgot to turn off my alarm clock, and woke up at an unearthly hour of 8am. not very unearthly, but you get it, dont you. rotted all the way til midday and went to the library, but not before going window shopping. originally it was shopping for eyeliners, but i didnt buy anything so it became window shopping.

the library was fun. really. found tons of spots where it's really quiet and no one goes there except for nosey people. perfect dating spots man. haha. then saw darl cheating on me with nad T_T wahh man. so sad man. totally. so i just sat there reading random rubbish while they studied bio. (ok now it sounds wrong. haha.)

what am i talking about anyway. lol.

walked all the way from the library to the beach near the hawker centre, (yes, on foot with heels) and i didnt die! HAHA. of course i didnt. took them off and walked on the sand. really fun, just that the part where i had to walk on the grass and mud, then on the stone ground to the toilet to wash my feet wasnt. and then getting back on my heels. thank god trish's dad sent me to the bustop. thankew! :D i'd have died walking out on the SLOPE. oh man just kill me. haha. see how vanity kills?



i like my footprint. (: the rest got washed away T_T

anyway liwei's birthday's coming up and i've got the perfect present for her. (esp since i wont be around during her birthday. 16th somemore. haha.)

just another thought. why do women nag so much after they become mothers? and they dont talk properly either. Is that the effect of a certain hormone released during pregnancy that causes them to be professionals in getting on kids' nerves? whoa thats like instant pro can. to be pro you need training, but for that you just have sex and give birth! WOW. HAHA.

disgusting bitch. read the signs. seriously. they are IM-POR-TANT. (im not refering to my mother or anyone in my family in this case.)

dont you just love this song?
(took it off.)

because i do. and i heart justin. :D

the film of cliche

12 hour LOTR marathon! :DDD (11 and a half, whos cares :D)

zomg i swear, LEGOLAS is ze hotttt! that is, of those in the movie. haha. Aragon is ok la, quite cute but of course, knowing me, I LIKE GAY-LOOKING/METROSEXUAL GUYS. HAHA. im sorry to the gay and nongay folk, it was just a comparison (((:


(just in case you forget how hot he looks)


and this is sonia's hot guy. or cute guy. or somewhere along those lines.

but seriously! which guy do you prefer in bed? the one who looks like he hasn't had a bath in a month, or someone who looks super clean and has really sexy, piercing eyes? :D

anyway, back to the movie itself. haha. the story and lines were abit too cliche, really. haha! im sorry, but im just not the avid fan (but i could watch it again for legolas!) haha, i was like guessing the story throughout and it was easy la. haha. fun fun.

and and, (im sorry but i watched harry potter long long before i watched LOTR) the scenes, characters and plots were just so damned much like harry potter la. i mean, you can liken frodo to harry with the "ahh ohh it hurts im being carried to another universe inside my head", gandalf to dumbledore, both old men, wizards, freaking long beards and alws talk in those wise old tones and their words are alws in riddles. then we have legolas and his hair just like lucius malfoy (i love it ok. totally. especially when it blows in the wind. dont ask me why i chopped my hair off again because i like long hair ok.) and how to forget, sauron to voldermort, the evil 'person', and the dark riders to the dementors! the trolls look reused too, but too bad it's digital, i think. haha. oh and aragon looked like sirius black too!

and sonia's maid is damn nice can. sonia, IM BUYING HER OVER! HAHAHA kidding kidding :D

sherry's so cute ok. i nearly mistook him for a cushion. (yes sonia and xiu, you guys are really cute too :D)

one day, when i make a film, im going to make it "the film of cliche" where you can see all the cliche lines, story plots and basically after you hear one line you know the entire scene. HAHA.

excerpt below:

guy: i love you
the audience thinks, girl is going to say i love you too, and they'll gaze intently for a few seconds while looking really happy and touched then they'll kiss into the beautiful sunset. then the picture will zoom out and fade to nxt scene."
girl: i love you too
the 2 of them gaze intently for a few seconds looking really happy and touched then they kiss into the beautiful sunset with the sun between their lips.
(picture zooms out and fades into nxt scene.)

haha. a complete sell out right :D

tired, even though it was just a tv watching day. nights! <333