/you had your say so now's my turn;

/you had your say so now's my turn;

something really interesting happened to me, like omg AHH
but of course, im not gg to tell you unless you gave me a million bucks and let me kill you aft that.
now what.
AHH.
How am I gg to go to school man.
die. die die die.
AHHHHHHHH.
yes i agree that this is getting really ridiculous, typing line by line.
but, ohman.
die la, no face liao.

PE was really fun.
Phys was really sleepy but fun.
SS was really fun.
Chinese was really fun.
IS is very fun.

the breaks inbetween were more fun. :D
hehehe.

and i have nothing else to say.
read this, if you want.
the convo of 2 very mad girls.

(9:45 PM) ღweixin!:
oh goodie nxt time we go
(9:46 PM) ღweixin!:
you kope 1 i kope 1
(9:46 PM) ELIS ! ; lyin:
OKAY!

nothing.
=/

/te quiero, te quiero

/te quiero, te quiero

yes i know, i know.
:D
lib was really fun.
i've met my match in the boycraze!
ok, not exactly match, but.. well, you know.
as obsessed.
over the same matter, or individuals
PICTURES!
no, not for you to see, duh. :D
say pretty please, shake your butt on the podium or whatever it's called during assembly, tell f tong that he needs yun nam hair care or beijing 101, give the bitch a good fuck (eew) and last of all, GIVE ME HIS NUMBER. HAHAHAHHAA.
im kidding about the last one. i can get it myself, thru people :D
ok, so maybe you can give me a million bucks and ill show you 1 pixel of it. (((:

gym was fun, coz i didnt bring my shirt -_- so i borrowed pet's! YAY!
it was more of slacking though. bounce here bounce there, then ran 1 and half rounds. cramps man, give up. then daryl ask somemore -_- knn he anyhow run still.. faster -_- but yay, got someone run with me :D
coz chris run like sprinting like that, then yx and elis wanted their 3 rounds and im there dying.. then got 1 long legs green shoelace one run beside me -_-

ok the entire paragraph's filled with -_- now. HAHA.
OFFICIAL GYM ON THURS!
ohmy, how sexy.
and i have dental appointment before it-_-
sounds..

OH WAIT I DONT. okok cancel that one out. yay. now appointment on friday. hahaha!
whoopeedoo~

He comes from a foreign place
An island far away
Intrigues me with every move
'Till I'm breathless, I'm helpless
Can't keep my cool
Steals my heart when he takes my hand
And we dance, to the rhythm of the band
I feel his finger tips, grip my hips
And I slip as we dip into a state of bliss

/When big brown eyes can hypnotise

/When big brown eyes can hypotise

not emO! :D
and neither was i emo when i typed last night's post out. hehehehhee.
anws, im feeling pretty high right now. because i survived 7 periods STRAIGHT~

oh and leong the bitch pisses me off so much. seriously, if someone managed to chiong everything over the wkend, and show you the damned file, you DO NOT say, no im not going to mark it. take it back. like, 1 wk after you complained to my mum that i dont hand in my hw. and even worse, YOU DO NOT IMMEDIATELY LOOK AND THE FILE AND SAY, you copy from where? KNN LA. so much for that. GAH.
die bitch, die.

big big headache. now what. take a look at my p and c hw and dont even read thry it, just write a big fat "COPIED FROM SOMEWHERE" on it. go on, do it. it's not like you wouldnt anyway. and you asked if it's your problem. of course it's your damned fucking problem, who said it wasnt in the 1st place? slut, i've never failed math until you taught me.

now im pissed.

okok, out of piss mode. ahhhhh.

AHHH HAHAAH GOT CUTE GUY HAHAHAHAHAHHA
eyes so nice
but nono, taken. ):

/I said ay mama, you seem to forget, I'm not in love yet

/I said ay mama, you seem to forget, I'm not in love yet

i dont care anymore; there's no point.
i mean, come on. no one cares anymore, just no one.
its the norm.
so quit doing it.
I'm not the only one whos screwed up within,
take a look.
people with even worse sadistic desires.
doing more immoral things
than me
why just tell me this, just me,
dont give me that cliche line
it's not for my own good
its not because you think you're for real
you know it too
you've been through it, let me find my way by myself
even a butterfly thats struggling out of it's cocoon (i rmb asking the teacher how to spell this in a science exam -_-), when helped, it wont fly. it just cant.

but it's like i've so much to say
but the publicity of blogs, even diaries
unthinkable.
the main purpose of censorship is to block out the raw thoughts,
it's originality
just turns it all into another story, like black is to white
the way im telling you im happy when im so broken within

you're not the only one,
feeling like someone marked an X over your sore aching heart
with each stroke causing much tremor within
then thrusting with full force
probably some sharp metal rod
straight on, with perfect aim
right through it
and leave you there to bleed
even if he doesnt know
to walk past him
with the utmost desire to grab him by the shoulders there and then
kiss him, slap him, by all means
tell him how much you hate him
yet love him at the same time
and afterwards, let him tell you that he has another
but you just cant stop all those thoughts with him in it
running through your brain like water through pipes
be it perverse or pure, fantasy or reality

maybe the worst is to see him
in a time or place after that
maybe even to just interact, to talk to him

but i guess the magic of his words,
either traps you further, or sets you free.
dont go into it
it's not a pretty place to be in
maybe,
an apology from him
the breaking of your heart
though sour,
makes the tears fall
even if you're really controlled
would just make you happy in the passing time.

it'll heal.
and no, im not happy about that. why would I be?

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I can not speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me

/in love?

/in love?

my 3rd and 4th fingernails(right hand) arent growing evenly -_-
how very pissifying.
must.. re.. cut..

anws im near completion of the math B thing! YAY for me!
and my pen.
0.5 pens are easier to scribble with than 0.7s.

ohoh, yesterday's gym thing was so fun! like, the easy easy sets, then after that we had capt ball in the rain! GIRLS WON (duh!). quote mr francis lee, marcus flying all over the floor. thanks guys, it was really damn fun in the rain too! just that the ball doesnt taste good, dont aim at the face please. HAHA.
AND THE GYM. you know, the inclined situps thing? HAHA. we put the thing to the max and slide down! woohoo! so fun so fun.

so now, we have official gym training every thurs aftnn after daryl, pet, nat and jimmy's pe! whoopeedoo. ok, so it was originally on monday, but I HAVE CHINESE REMEDIAL. along with chem and mathA. how very retarded. chinese remedial -_-ll of all things.. since the girls dont want monday, thurs it is! :D

and i dont mind sacrificing lane training for these kind of days. :D

you have no idea how happy i am. i mean, was, for yesterday. something me and yixuan did, that elis's gonna kill us. (: sorry honey! but it was such a good opportunity.. we did a good deed ytd! :DDD

nehneh. peanut butter chocolate is good for the cramping individual.

with love.

ps. you need to straddle the person doing inclined pull ups, and its called assisting.
and for standing broad jump, imagine you're pouncing on someone tallllllllll.

/love, you.

/love, you.

nothing, just feeling quite...

(from postsecret)

/With love,

/With love,

no mood and inspiration to blog man.
like, DIE MAN.
you'll know if i've told you, i mean, whined,
on msn or in person.

perfect rainy day, if you ask me.
and math hw saved my life.

and i really really must start training, i mean,
MY LINE'S GONE.
))))):

damn gay can. super gay.
and i screwed up LA essay.
and classphoto was really fun. (:

/hey baby,

/hey baby,

now that there's phys remedial on friday 3pm,
CANNOT CRASH GP LECTURE ANYMORE )))))):

haiyah.
so sian. nvm i'll have my own nxt yr, and crash the j2s.

but i want to crash the j2's now..

nevermind (: you didnt read that (:

anyways, the square's like, super irritating. like GAH. i swear, my uniform's much better than some people around here.
and i'm not really bent on hitting all your records. basket.

ohoh! and we went for lunch across and.. HAHA. nothing (:

i love white.

/is it possible to die from embarrassment?

/is it possible to die from embarrassment?

hee hee.
SUCCESSFULLY managed to not run 2.4! WOOHOOO!
and it was raining~

break was gay too,
something about dropping cups and bumpings.

THE SS DEBATE WAS SO SCREWED LIKE AHHH!!!!

i love your eyes (:

/I hate you, but I can't say that

/I hate you, but I can't say that



GRRRR the brother is just so fucking irritating you know.
and all i wanna do now, is to rip his damned mouth into 2.

so smelly mouth for what? not like you even impress girls.
with really low class sarcasm and suaning.
and no one appreciates whatever that comes out of your mouth.

all you think is that you're really great, smart etc, like, after scoring 50 marks lower than me. ok, more than 50 actually.

DUDE. no one respects you.

but thanks for lending me your com, after uncountable insults and intervention by the parents.

and by the way, i'll get thru this just fine.
unlike you.
i'd do so much better; you'd be ashamed you even said anything to me.


anyways, the com is bloody slow; it takes 15 minutes just to set up. ohmannnn. and it's fucking heavy, im going to die lugging it around.

and i'll do everything and anything to get what i want.

i'll prove myself.
while you desperately try to salvage yours, the *censored*

/bleed it out

/bleed it out

ok, so
today was pretty fun.

the end.

HAHA IM KIDDING.

i ought to wake up 1 minute earlier to catch buses.
and math A was really fun today, coz ms jiang wasnt around for half the lesson. so i got around to clearing stuff up. hehehe.
MONDAYS ARE SO KILLING for heavens sake.
math A, break, MATHBCHINESELAGEOG*supposedendofday, butNOOO*CHEMREMMATHAREM.

6 lessons at a go. oh kill me.

and the the the *cough* is so cute. hehehe.

/gone, all gone

/gone, all gone

great. wonderful.
so im going to be observed for 2 wks.
because i dont talk in class.

i'd ill both of you if i could get away with it legally. the guilt wont be there, coz it's the both of you.
you have no idea.
if this is what hatred is, i've never experienced this til now.
thanks.

OH BY THE WAY PEOPLE, I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM BECAUSE I DONT TALK IN CLASS!

/desperate for a cure

/desperate for a cure

help?
ok, now my mum knows that she needs to see the *censored*. yeah. took me quite alot of nerve to call her.

anyways, the day was pretty good, but of course it'll be ruined again.

early in the morning, i had absolutely no motivation to go to sch. so i woke up late, left the house late, got the later bus, THEN the bus 38 had to come later so i ended up being early for school.
like, damn.

thankew rodney ser :D for you know what. just dont.. publicize. YOU BETTER NOT AH! HAHAHAHA!

and rachna's freaking LOUD! GAHHHH *dies of embarrassment* haha jkjk.

ohgod im scared. of later.

ps. go get a hep B jab. it can be passed through sexual contact.

OH AND THE FREAKING TABLET SPOILT AGAIN. i am #$%^&*( pissed. bah. no onlining for the wkend. ):

/you begin to wonder why

/you begin to wonder why

what else's new?
it's as if i dont mean anything to you, at all.
i dont, i never did, have i?
i'd be suprised if you said yes.
forget it.
forget all you used to do for me.
forget the way you'd tell me everything that i wanted to hear at the time
forget the way you'd kiss my cheek when you felt like it
forget everything
because you gave up on me, or did you even think i was worth it, wasting your time on me. go use your precious time on the other 2, im sure they'd be better.

and they dont know that the *censored* wants to meet them tml.
i cant tell them now, can i?

bleeding it out doesnt really help now. it used to. it just got numb.

/help?

/help?

desperately calling for help here.
HOW. HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW.
fuck you slut, i passed.

was something i wanted to write, but i suppose that it'll get me into alot of trouble, so nevermind.

anyways, it was supposed to be a happy day to be ruined by this. grr.

and gyms are the best place to be in. (:

/won't stop till

/won't stop till

anws, im screwed.
goddammit it's not as if seeing your pathetic makeup smothered face will pull my grades up. get the fuck off.
go, go. if i see you on the streets, and a truck is speeding towards you, the wheels dont even deserve to be ill treated by rolling over you.
not like you give constructive advice either. you just give statements which no one gives a shit about, and assume you're calling the shots around the place. you are, technically. but no one likes you, get it right.
and i hope you realised the trend that has happened after you stepped in. both places.
from good to screwed.
i guess the heads are just blind.

oh, the screwed part is about telling my parents. i dont know how to tell them. someone drop me a hint?

somehow, somewhere, i know you'll still appear there tml. i got my crystal ball to tell me (:

/Hon, there's something I need to tel you

/Hon, there's something I need to tell you

ohmygod so embarrassingggggg. help. ):
and then, i didnt realise it until i came to school.
no shorts somemore. die. die die die die die.
SO EMBARRASSING. OHMAN.

volcanoes were fun, as usual. (: (: (:

and then, LA was the usual shit. i mean, i was dozing off. haha. then ms cheah arrow. die die.

but i suppose the highlight was lunch and assembly. ^^
sonia, denise, trish, shrompy, rachna should know.
ohgosh the chair is so comfortable. it's like, so hot. warm, you know. (:
and i shall dwadle from the back from now on ^^
*turns red*

elis's friend! gimme the number! i know you're jealous that i didnt ask for yours, but still! dont make me sad leh (:

hahaha so cute ^^

/I'm glad you remembered

/I'm glad you remembered

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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omg thats so fucking true. (esp the seriousness part. hehe.)
scary shit.
try it: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

gym was wonderful. i had like, 1 hr to myself. beautiful. then shrompy came. good thing coz some other people came in after that too. bah.
never eat like, one big ladle of chilli before running. dont.

/je t'aime, mon bonbon;

/je t'aime, mon bonbon;

like OHMYGOD.
HAHA. ms jiang's not here, so.. NO REMEDIAL! (:
and there's no phys remedial, so, sch ends at 1.2o for me TODAY(with chem remedial). AHHAHA. so happy.
my monday isnt that ruined anymore(:
oh gym, love, here i come!

entire aftnn's probably gonna be spent in there.
and geog's volcano is really cool. i love volcanos. i mean it.
btw, lava is on the surface, magma is inside the volcano and mantle is the ground one.
now it's sth about volcanos exploding. BOOM. there goes the top half of the volc. (:
hehehe.

hello sweetie (:
and for the 1st time, i thought ms cheah was monotonous.

/Lets see what love can do

/Lets see what love can do

tml's monday. im so not prepared for it.
where did the wkend disappear to? ):
saturday: tuition
sunday: sleep

oh. ok. great way to spend it. the sunday part, that is.
and i hate it when people wake me up by screaming at me.
fuck you. no, not literally.

haha. 3rd dream in a row!

/I love you?

/I love you?

haha! 2nd night in a row!
really strange dreams nowadays, and you're init! X)
sth about fast cars racing in the dead of the night under the stars, hugs/cuddles, sleeping on buses, imh people, rage and jealousy. and of course, you.
and somehow my pink pen and pencil were init too.

desires eh?
sure, i want you. and the cars. (:

/Where did I go wrong,

/Where did I go wrong,

OHMYGOD my internet has been hacked!

i hope the hacker dies a tragic death where his balls get pulled off by himself being tied to a tree and his balls tied to a buffalo in the opp direction, or his balls are put in a locked clamp and the keys are nowhere to be found, and the room set on fire so he'd have to chop his own balls off. or tie him somewhere and slather honey on his balls, where the ants will come and bite 'em off.

that is, if he's a guy.

if it's a female,(unlikely so, because it's some thai gaming website looking similar to dragonfable), well, i hope you get raped by 10 guys who have aids AT THE SAME TIME. or maybe stuff an ancient CPU (extra large) up yours. or hold your legs open and stuff mud/tacks up yours til you look 9 months pregnant with triplets. or quads. ok the tacks part here is really sadistic. ohwells.

if you're both then.. well. i dont know what to say. skin you alive then pour salt and pepper on you, then do the static electricity experiment on you, i suppose. or force the vending machine up your ass. wait, too big. hmm. the tree branch? without lube. HAH.

and i'll watch you die slowly. i'd be happy too. anyone wants front seat tixs?

DIE, BITCH.
and this applies to the bastard who stole elis' phone too.
cheer up darling! (:
this means you get a new phone!

and you guys suck so much. (:

i love you honey! (:

/Do you know how it feels like loving someone thats in a rush to throw you away?

/Do you know how it feels like loving someone thats in a rush to throw you away?

and i realised that all in holding on to is only fragments of memories of what used to be.

honey, i wished it was real.

/prettylilboy

/prettylilboy

ok, like omg i cant believe i actually dreamt of that.
what are dreams again?
"sth sth your desire sth sth sth"
so it has sth to do with my desire huh.
woohoo. so i desire to have sex with him in school and anywhere else.

now it's up to you to decide which him it is.

X)

/but I found you

/but I found you

ponned pe~ because i alr did make up pe ytd, so just pon luh(:
but the knee is like, sibeh painful man. climb stair like climb mount everest like that.

oh and i love mr ho to bits and pieces!
i dont have an F grade for IS anymore! (: 60plus is a B grade, right?
<3 mr ho man. YOU'RE THE MAN! (:

but i heart my skyscraper more. (:
was laughing around like a mad person. ohgosh i love this high feeling. i cant believe i let it go for like.. 7 mths.

anws, bowling was pretty sian, coz you know, the usual.

btw, chilli/peppers release endorphines, the same hormone released while having sex and eating chocolate.
no wonder. all my favourite things.
(:

and i cant help but put this in here
he's so fucking hot.
i can be really sweet, y'know.

/pretty boy,

/pretty boy,

ღ weixin! says:
if we're in a room with *** and **
ღ weixin! says:
we lock door ok?
ღ weixin! says:
(:
ELIS ! ; so much more than i could say says:
OKAY!
ღ weixin! says:
:D
ELIS ! ; so much more than i could say says:
SET WITH BIG CONFIRM!
ELIS ! ; so much more than i could say says:
must definitely stay overnight tgt
ELIS ! ; so much more than i could say says:
haha!

im not the only horny one around here(:

/Just dont let the rain pass you by

/Just dont let the rain pass you by

no, nothing much.
but he's really hot. (:

ELIS ! ; so much more than i could say says:
i agree that he's cute

(:

btw, i went to check out condoms today. it's like, the average size of it is:
width: 52mm plus minus 2mm
length: 17.7cm plus minus 5cm

is it just me, or is that pretty...

i shant say it. (:

damned should have bought them, rather than the..
HAHA. nevermind. (:

gym was really fun too! with elis daryl jimmy. i swear man, we oughta do this kinda things sometime soon. maybe every thurs. (: and there was someone else init too... hahaha. ohmygosh la can sweat man! like ohmygosh *drools* kind of hot. :D EH! my taste very good one kae?

then run until want to die man. leg got replacement one not ah? ok, joint then. (:

(i sincerely hope he doesnt find my blog. how embarrassing.)
(and i sincerely hope the people who read dont tell him my blog either HAHAHA.)

/oh, love

/oh, love

you make me go back on my words. (:

and im so screwed. you know, GPAs.
i will start mugging.
after gym today.

wish me luck i dont die. not of mugging, but of telling my mum. and dad. oh great.

im deepuhrrresssedeh.

and i forgot what i wanted to blog just now.

he's such a hottie.
but you've made it so hard to match up.
but i should have known.

/I'm sorry, but i saw it coming.

/I'm sorry, but i saw it coming.

darling, darling.

hahaha. training ytd was really really reallly fun! (: and i was laughing through it. (:


was trying to sit, well, demurly, with the legs crossed and all, then yixuan was like, you this side zao geog alr. so pull the skirt la! then i 4got that must pull the other side, then... PIAKKK. GAHHAHAHAHA. the thing tore like 1.5cm or sth la! HAHAHA.

and the ball speed is not 2.5, it's 2.4 (: average up yeah.

then then then KEV AND LW CAME! (: went out aft that, and kev was really fascinated by the bowling bag like wth lol. and lw you look really cute in sch uni la! hahaha



the unsuspecting kevon. X)

hehehee.

ps. ELAINE! insult my man again and i'll steal your man. HAHA.

/请不要说你已不爱我

/请不要说你已不爱我

nothing much, just that i've lost my entire free monday. ):

and there's this empty hole in my heart which i dont know how to fill. will you teach me how?

gone. all gone.

/I want you, now.

/I want you, now.

neh neh i feel not so happy but i feel happy.
nevermind.

the ss teacher is saying sth about some term i cant rmb but it has to do with priorities.
SO. is training with the darlings more impt to me, or are my dear darlings more important to me?

die leh, how to choose.

IS later. the that one lor. landscapes. wish me luck that i dont fall aslp. and i dont wanna go for chinese. help.

ps. daryl's a girlfriend.
*watches someone fly into rage.*

/I lied, to you.

/I lied, to you.

"He's so sweet to you."
"But he's not mine."
"You still love him, dont you?"
"He belongs to her, and the her, isn't me."

/My pretty boy

/My pretty boy

neh neh. PE was so fun because i sorta ponned it. (you see, the ankle's still not very stable even after 5 days after falling off teh stairs)
so i ended up walking while shrompy ran. like, side by side. lol lol.

yay! finally tj got eyecandy (apart from you know who but.., well) and he's *****'s friend! yay. neh neh im happy.

and i found someone more gu niang than me! not that i didnt know it alr, but, well. he's my chio bu! (:
i'll be your lesb partner, chio bu. (:
haha, moisturiser and toner and gawking at cute guys.

should i not go for trg tml and go out with darling? (:

/I cant let go

/I cant let go

im pissed im jealous im emo im depressed i have no idea how else to express how i feel right now but it's probably the same kind of feeling with you see your other half kissing another woman and i refuse to put any punctuation because the words are flying out of head just like that SO THERE

you have no idea how much pain i was filled with inside just because you said that and i dont think i will ever get back from it because yes i admit that youve never been off my mind even when i told you i wasnt and i really dont want you to look at anyone else because youre the only one for me my hearts bleeding i feel like i just ran myself into a dagger youre holding it hurts so much i think i rather die

ps. i really love you

/I cant give up now, I cant.

/I cant give up now, I cant.

LA's the highest of all subjs. how horrible.

lets hope the moderation will really help, please.

my mum's asking for my results, i cant tell her, can i?
but i really studied.
she wont believe it, thats for sure.
like c'mon, someone getting like, 30% av for all subjs telling her that she's been studying when everytime she walks in im not exactly doing work. pls, there's sth called break times, when the icy tower and youtube's forgotten to be closed. (harold is cute, yeah.)
fuck.

anws, sch today was pretty ok, i mean, i handed in my math hw! (: achievement!
and i have mathA remedial every monday from nxt wk, like fuck. now to settle the chem and mathB remedials.

if she lays her paw on me i'll scream molest.

then the integrating thing on the gc thing was pretty cool, just that for the hw, i keep getting syntax error, like fuck. oh please, my pretty pink gc, give me the answer~

went out with gen later on. haha it was fun, and starbucks was real nice (: and swensens needs smaller tables. neh neh! but no damned movies leh, like fuck.
coz like i cant go home late from now on, i needa be guai before i give my mum the progress report. and leong's gonna screw me for it. and lls. and esp leong. maybe jiang. but like fuck la!

im in a fuck mood right now, so yeah, like fuck.
and everytime the phone rings i get scared.

baby baby, i'll help you get through this, if you'll let me(:

/of broken hearts and glittery shards

/of broken hearts and glittery shards

ok, so it's raining. the same scene that nearly everything worth mentioning happened.

except this time, the breeze reeks with the odour of blood. It used to be so clear, so beautiful, so pure.

and the rain, always falling like little blades, piercing through my heart further with each drop.

it hurts.

I want you back. That is, if i ever really had you.

ps. it's jesse mccartney's fault.
pps. 'cause it's that song of this that's playing, again.

/singing I love you in a foreign language

/singing I love you in a foreign language

i want these 2 balls!

for 1st ball, it's the smokin inferno or sidewinder, i suppose. since i cant handle the rest. but the smokin inferno is like SO SEXY. WHOO~

but then ah, they say smokin inferno is not for people who throw the ball hard.
wah damn pekchek alr. do i throw hard? I DONT KNOW. GAHH. ok, so.. it's either this or that.

anws for plastic ball! the pretty pretty ones!

which one nicer? cow or hello kitty? (:
it's either this or that too! (:

so pretty. :D

then the bag we'll just see later. :D

and no, im not happy. ohwait, actually i am. im doing math.

I WILL JIAYOU FOR PROMOS starting NOW.

oh and a random thought. does semen contain calories?

/No more, not more.

/No more, not more.

ok, im super depressed now.

damned slut! (who stole my man!) {AGAIN!}

GAHHHH. EURGH. #$%^&*(). FUCK!

/There's only so much I can take

/There's only so much I can take

rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 ppl at their tagboard to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
I Will Carry You - Clay Aiken
(well, I need someone today.)

Will you get far in life?
No promises - Shayne Ward
(lol, erh ok?)

Will you get married?
cool - gwen stefani
(HA-HA. but they have sth about a new last name, so i guess its a yes. (: )

What is your best friend's theme song?
Stars are blind - Paris Hilton
(HAHAHAHAHA ok i think so too.)

What is the story of your life?
Don't wake me up - The Hush Sound
(life and dont wake up.. sounds pretty clashing.)

What was primary school like?
Senorita - Justin Timberlake
(actually ah, pretty much leh!)

How can you get ahead in life?
Like I Love you - Justin Timberlake.
(nono, omg lol GAHH.)

What is the best thing about your friends?
She Wants to Move - ministry of sound (?)
(HAHAHA YES YES YES!)

What is in store for this weekend?
Rich Girl - Gwen Stefani
(I WISH!)

What song describes you?
Step up - Step up ost
(I think so too.)

How is your life going?
Miss you much - Various Artists (200 pound beauty OST)
(uh, huh?)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Over It - Katherine McPhee
(HEY! WAHLAU!)

How does the world see you?
You don't know I love you - Various Artists (200 pound beauty OST)
(aww really? I love you too!)

Will you have a happy life?
Liang Zhi Lian Ren - Gary Cao Ge
(haha I suppose its a yes(: )

What do your friends really think of you?
Eenie Meenie Miney Mo - Fantastic
(HAHA YES im guessy guessy!)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Summer Love - Justin Timberlake
(HAHA it's a yes, but pls, let it go on for autumn, winter and spring, if i like you back, that is.)

How can I make myself happy?
Rough Landing Holly - Yellowcard
(!!)

What should you do with your life?
How Do I live - Trisha Yearwood
(ok, i suppose i gotta love someone.)

Will you ever have children?
What Can I do? - The Corrs
(OKAYE. HAHAHAHA.)

yeap. i koped this from yiheng's blog. bored, you see.

so bored i went to cut my hair.
THEN I SCREWED IT UP. the fringe.

AND THEN I WENT TO THE SALON. SHE SCREWED IT UP FURTHER.

help.

/help?

/help?

ohmygod im depressed.

hair problems. and this one is.. OHMYGOD.

/what can I do to make you love me

/what can I do to make you love me

i really like this song (the one thats is supposed to be playing right now), though it's like, super old. coz it's like, everything's so.. appropriate to whats happening right now! except that.. well. i cant really decide.

"I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we have talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what i'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there"

right. ok.

PE was fun! like, ponning the run. leg pain! piang eh just now still fall off the stairs with the bowling bag 'cause the knnbccb cleaner who cleaned the floors made the stairs super wet and it's not dry. and im like, carrying the damned bag. GAHH. ok, not the cleaner's fault. nevermind, nevermind.

i feel $%^&*, i mean, the look mr chee gave me when he gave me my phys paper. knnbccb man. stop it la people, i feel bad enough alr you all still like that. the worst are those who get higher than you and start whining to you. knn go whine to the wall or sth. im sure the wall will listen. and it wont hit you.

ponned chinese to cry on the boyfriend's shoulder. wonderful. then we went out, like long long long after that. ha-ha. im sorry lin lao shi, i cannot take it alr.

i handed in my problem solving on time! (congratulate me!)

i finished 2/3 of my math A hw! (congratulate me again!)

i screwed up my bowling and i have no idea what im doing. (dont congratulate me.)

and the taxi thing was so fun! like c'mon, it was a 110% sure thing that it was gonna happen! (: look im psychic :D right elaine? hope you guys used protection. HARHAR. right. nevermind.

training was rather fun, though i abit bu gan xin. xuanxuan and gen should know. bahh. nvm, nxt time. it will happen. and the new tchr in charge came. hello mr francis lee!

wonderful, now i know 3 francis(es). tong, lee and yeo. fun right. HAHA.

ms pan bak qiu tak stamp! ohmygoddd. HAHAHAHA. nothing, private joke. nothing for you to know. (:

like, im so screwed. i'd rather jump now.

Can I not share you? I've been telling people not to be selfish and start sharing, but you're not included as such. you're mine, you kuku. only mine (:

/hello baby,

/hello baby,

HAHAHAHA. ok this is damn weird. im supposed to be sad and all, but i think i overly depressed alr then start laughing HAHAHA.

anws i love suprises(: unless they are bad. i like good suprises!

and i have no idea why i get a damned bloody headache everytime i talk to you!

/that you are mine and no one else's

/that you are mine and no one else's

i am so depressed im laughing.

math and chem.

EH I MUGGED LIKE SHIT FOR CHEM OK?
but for math A i know it's my fault, but CHEM. it's fucking chem for heavens sake.

the progress report's worrying me.
i studied, i really did.
and the best part was, just because of studying,

i even gave you up.

/the boy

/the boy

geog rocks like omg coz i learnt it in sec 2 wahahhaha.
plates rock.
right now i have a vision of medusa teaching me plate tectonics. brr.

no im not talking sense. im not very sane right now.

im quite busy worrying about my results later. 3 papers back today. ahh!

psst! the boyfriend's pic's in my phone! HAHAHAHA.

/it's stage 2 for you now, love

/it's stage 2 for you now, love

TODAY, SCHOOL ENDED AT 9.30.
woohoo!
PE, then a nonexistant physics. MR CHEE ROCKS.
hello mr chee! (:

SO, after that, went to pp after a half an hr wait for daryl. like wth he went to bathe aft he said he was coming. ): wah cheat my feelings. the bus ride was so funny! i was with yixuan, then joanne was init too. so i told yixuan, "xuan! my girlfriend!"*points to joanne* then joanne was like, smile smile. then i told joanne,"joanne! my other girlfriend!"*points to yixuan*

Im such a n timer, where n is a positive integer more than 2 at any given moment.

the exco had to meet mr ng in macs, so i was sitting there with fellow gatecrashers qh and azri while they were talking about the team stuff. cheer up, qh! ok so maybe he's in deep shit right now, like now, but nevermind. ahh! the macs guy was pretty funny. coz i had a free mcflurry thing and yx had a strawberry sundae, so i collected both from the counter. the guy, put the icecream in the mc flurry thing, looked at it, and threw it away, and decided to give me another one. (: hehehe. and the sundae was like, strawberry jam on icecream, wtih melted ice cream floating. HOHO.

qh, i mean, QHWEE, was happily (ok, glumly) going thru my phone, when he came across my pics. not very censored, coz it wasnt in the memory card. hehehehe.

then after mr ng left the stuff started getting quite wrong, i mean, well, with me. duh! X)

anws the dsa matter was brought up in the bus, and OMG I CANT BELIEVE THAT * GOT INTO THE INTERVIEW ROUND. LIKE HOLYSHIT. but i hardly doubt there's a chance, coz its only 1 this yr. or 2. ohcrap. plsplspls let the dsa guy or whoever it is whos gonna come in not be as screwed up as the *.
like holyshit.

then, me yx and pet went around pp, hunting for stuff, and uh,
ELISONG YOU BETTER BRING A TROLLEY TO SCHOOL ON THURS HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

like omg it's bigger than me when i sit down. and it's not just 1 thing.

HAHAHAHA.

shit man, no $$ liao, then got fees to pay. help! sugardaddy! AHHHH!

tml got some classroom thing, then got jimmy come and talk or sth like that, yadayada, then they say got games! :D pls dont let the game be like, play catching in 6 rounds around the track. ohman. HAHA.

eh sian, tml get papers back leh, how? DIE LIAO.
):

i love sleeping my afternoons away. ok, im still sleepy. i shall go bathe then see if i still wanna sleep.

*for someone's eyes only, very easy to guess who though*
daryl has his chinese oral exam today, so, best of luck! (:

bye loves!

ps. darling dearest, dont take it too hard. it'll go downhill from here. which is bad, i know. goodluck! <3

/the heart the best liars break the most is their own.

/the heart the best liars break the most is their own.

omgomgomg transformers rocks!

:D

ok so, originally our plan was to watch hot fuzz, which was NC16, but since sonia wasnt 16 yet, we had to change it. i dont regret it though, i mean, we got to talk to this cute guy with really cute hair, BUT DAMMIT his girl looked as if she was gonna kill us. dont blame her though, i mean, well, yeah. but he's really kinda cute! though he rejected the tix coz his gf wasnt 16 yet. I SWEAR, she looks older than him!
(hope no one who knows them reads this)

so anws, the woman whom i bought the tix from was old and grumpy, so we let people go 1st to ensure we wouldnt get her again. got this really really nice guy who let us change the tix to transformers. (: yay!

no spoilers here, but lubricating is really fun. X)
wayway better than f4. really. or to me, at least.

OH YEAH. later on, there was this shop selling really kinky stuff, like sudofuku, strip poker, and some boob radio. and they had sex vouchers! like, for a partner to give to the other partner. SO DAMN COOL CAN. sounds like serious fun man.

anwsanws, went home aft that, and the mrt ride was so bloody funny omg lol. coz there was this cute guy right beside me (once again, lol) and sonia was like, he's so cuteeeeeeee! so i typed,"feels hot in here" and she started laughing like a bullet train. then later ah, this guy moved so he had to move further. boo.

LATER ON, there was this super cute guy standing beside sonia, so we didnt switch places but faced each other so we(ok, i), could have a really good view of my cute guy. plus it would be so obvious! the warped thing was, my cute guy went down with her, and her cute guy went off with me. pfft.

and i nearly fell while walking on flat ground in nearly flat shoes.

(:

HAHA. im like so guai, i reached home before my bro did. (:

/pulling the trigger

/pulling the trigger

7 Random Stuff about me
1) I like singing in the shower, or anywhere, for the matter.
2) I think sex is overrated as a taboo thing in here.
3) I have a serious penchant for cute guys. and im not very quiet about it. (:
4) I like camwhoring.
5) I like to roll balls, throw balls and whack balls. kicking balls are just not my thing.
6) I do alcohol, just not beer.
7) I like painting my nails.

5 Factors that affect you to like someone
1) features
2) masculinity
3) intelligence
4) attitude
5) whether he can win me in arm wrestling. X)

1 Secret that can be revealed
1) To me, putting on the pillowcase for the bolster feels like rolling a condom on for some guy.

3 People who u think should play this
anyone
anyone
anyone

ok nevermind. koped this from wanshi's blog, coz i got so bloody bored and this is alr the 3rd post for july. HAHAHAHA.

(:

/I'm just another notch in your bedpost

/I'm just another notch in your bedpost

hello hello!
i like blogging at 2am.
it's like, late yet early.

anws anws, i cant wait for the dec hols to come, and there will be bowling camp, and my family's probably planning to go hk AND I WANT TO STAY IN SG!
so when they go hk, i can stay at home ALONE and chill out!
finally.
not like i havent been left home alone while they are overseas.
And, when they are off, i get extra money!
$$$
oh shopping, here i come!
and my dates too. hehe.
then i can go out w/o being asked who im going out with, AND I WONT HAVE TO LIE.
(: ilu baby (:
But that will depend on whether they will go if i dont. ohwells.

ok so it's my fault that im not getting any closer to my family. like, either i leave myself out, or i do get left out. but thats alright, anyhow, coz i get freeeeeedommmm~ oh love.

oh and, if there's gonna be a bowling chalet/bbq in dec anyhow, SOMEONE GOTTA BRING THE BOOOZEEEEE. vodka please (:
there's a bbq for the bunch of us bwpsians p6 03 after their Os anws. ohgosh i cant wait ^^
i really really cant wait to see everyone again!
But probably no alcohol, it's a bbq at lw's. parents, you know. maybe they'll be cool enough to help us buy some. lets hope. (:

today, i finally got 1 hr to myself! it was really good, since my head kept drifting away. and my hair NEVER FAILS to look good at night/early morning of 1am.
doesnt even look as good as when i go out. when i go out it sticks out everywhere like some scarecrow, but not too bad, i suppose. at least i dont look like im wearing an afro. but when it's like, late and im not going to go anywhere else, it STAYS DOWN. like STRAIGHT. I LIKE LEH. HAHA, must go out at 11pm. HAHAHAA.

hope you feel better, my very hot lil pretty boy (:

/I feel your pain

/I feel your pain

LIKE WHOA, finally you understand how i really felt then. or at least it seems to be. like, now i hope you do understand that this is only the early stages, later on you'd just lose your interest for anything you really like. but thats alright, because later in the end you'd feel better. or not. takecare, my darling. but i do hope a better ending for you.

ps. dont cut! it's bad! plus it scars!
pps. I still love you! I think. maybe. perhaps. guess not.

(:

damn, phone bills are gonna be sky high again. GAHH.