/half completed

/half completed

ok yes, i finished the overdue homework and my PI and now it's time to go to school.

i'm such a fucking disappointment.
i'm such a failure as a daughter
i'm such a failure in life.

i should just jump down now la.

muthafucker.

hello.

omg i hate you i hate you i hate you.
i dont even know why i put up with your nonsensical rubbish.

i'm fucking irritated.

maybe it's just pms but who the fuck cares.

byebye.

GET THE HINT, BITCH.

terrible, terrible.

sat on fresh bird shit. knn.

anyway the econs essay isnt due tomorrow la. mrs chang not in. haha.

geog was epicly boring.

and i realised that i've been blogging in 1 liners.

just like this.

cant help it la.

QUIT BOWLING!

I can't unlove you

went rollerblading w lw and len (((((((((((((((((((:
but too bad it rained like cats dogs camels elephants.
so poor len fell and hit her tailbone. ):

and something about gay conversations that made lw want to blog about this if she had a blog.

went pp to slack around, ended up at borders reading :D

so much for standing on one leg til the bus comes. ok so that was what i did aft lw's bus came and i was alone at the bustop with weird uncles. big deal.

which made me forget about what happened.

bedok inter is a good place to be.

saw this guy.

perfect skin
perfect hair
perfect figure
perfect height
perfect complexion
perfect clothing
perfect bag
perfect shoes
perfect style of walking
perfect look

guess what..

HE'S AN AH KUA!

(kua kua kua..)

so sad he's not female la! he could win all the ms universe contestants hands down! his make up so nice somemore!!

die ah ladies, there's a man snatcher who comes with a penis. lol. (no offense.)

bedok has alot of unstraight people. must be the influence. HAHA. ok i dont know what influence. but see alot in bedok leh! o_O

anyway. <\3. =/

tell me why, why, why do i even bother?
maybe because i didnt know what i got myself into on the 1st step?
screw it.
take it as we've never met, alright?
honestly. you've ruined me more than anyone has.
it's like, you know, more than a step further. it's a whole escalator.

yes im so pissed there's no title for this post.
grrr.
what would you do if you were me anyway?

so cover your eyes and hide your face;

ahh im dying. im really really dying.

and im really accident prone nowadays. yesterday i had a head on collision. and it was so retarded la zomg. -_-ll
and today, etc etc and etc. -_-ll

remind me to put masking tape over rachna's mouth in future when etc etc and etc. gah.

yesyes. im going to die. ):

/you begin to wonder why

/you begin to wonder why

what else's new?
it's as if i dont mean anything to you, at all.
i dont, i never did, have i?
i'd be suprised if you said yes.
forget it.
forget all you used to do for me.
forget the way you'd tell me everything that i wanted to hear at the time
forget the way you'd kiss my cheek when you felt like it
forget everything
because you gave up on me, or did you even think i was worth it, wasting your time on me. go use your precious time on the other 2, im sure they'd be better.

and they dont know that the *censored* wants to meet them tml.
i cant tell them now, can i?

bleeding it out doesnt really help now. it used to. it just got numb.

/I cant give up now, I cant.

/I cant give up now, I cant.

LA's the highest of all subjs. how horrible.

lets hope the moderation will really help, please.

my mum's asking for my results, i cant tell her, can i?
but i really studied.
she wont believe it, thats for sure.
like c'mon, someone getting like, 30% av for all subjs telling her that she's been studying when everytime she walks in im not exactly doing work. pls, there's sth called break times, when the icy tower and youtube's forgotten to be closed. (harold is cute, yeah.)
fuck.

anws, sch today was pretty ok, i mean, i handed in my math hw! (: achievement!
and i have mathA remedial every monday from nxt wk, like fuck. now to settle the chem and mathB remedials.

if she lays her paw on me i'll scream molest.

then the integrating thing on the gc thing was pretty cool, just that for the hw, i keep getting syntax error, like fuck. oh please, my pretty pink gc, give me the answer~

went out with gen later on. haha it was fun, and starbucks was real nice (: and swensens needs smaller tables. neh neh! but no damned movies leh, like fuck.
coz like i cant go home late from now on, i needa be guai before i give my mum the progress report. and leong's gonna screw me for it. and lls. and esp leong. maybe jiang. but like fuck la!

im in a fuck mood right now, so yeah, like fuck.
and everytime the phone rings i get scared.

baby baby, i'll help you get through this, if you'll let me(:

/I say shotgun, you say wedding

/I say shotgun, you say wedding

ohmygoddddd. 2 more hrs. 2 more hrs.

and i dont remember any formula, for real. FOR FUCKING REAL.

when i said i was screwed for geog at least i rmbed some sustainability thing.
now i say im screwed got phys I DONT REMEMBER ANYTHING.

so much for sleeping last night.

why live life from dream to dream?

geog and chem over. ohmygod im so screwed for chem. boohoohoo.
like, part A essay qns, i left the entire qn 1 BLANK. BLANKKKKK. ohfuck. ):
nevermind, it's over.
IM SCREWED FOR GEOG TOO.
AHHHHH.

oh yeah. i cant sleep. its like when you sleep your eyes somewhat lose focus 1st right? mine, even when shut tight, stays as if im ready to start reading. like GAHH NO I WANNA SLEEEEEEP. ):

phys tml, im so screwed.

wish me luck, i'd need loads.

and like ohmygod stop behaving as if you're my boyfriend! GAHH!

oh and uh, 3 more papers, 2 more days.
isthatgoodorbad. gahh.

/dont turn your back and walk away, again.

/dont turn your back and walk away, again.

gahh screw it. im so screwed for jcts, and like, LOOK IM BLOGGING!
):
)':
)`:

*bawls*

my imaginary friend for pillow talks everynight (because it's plain insane to ring someone up at 3am coz thats right before you sleep) is starting to fade too. i dont feel like talking to you, darling.
oh come on pillow, you know my deepest and darkest secrets.

YES, COME ON, PUT A BLOODY LISTENING DEVICE IN MY PILLOW TO HEAR EVERYTHING THAT I'VE GOT IN!! DO IT, BITCH!

so kiss me hard, darling, `cause it's the last i'll let you. ever.






"you thought i wont forget, but i remember, `cause i remember."

hellohello!

HAPPY 600TH POST, BLOGGIE!
i love you(:
the past 599 posts have been a real rollercoaster ride, huh?

anws, went out with sonia today! loitered around bugis, suntec and the mrt! HAHA.

ohyes. was trying to take this pic when the shopkeeper wasnt looking. bet she thought i was trying to pocket sth. haha.

(:

at suntec, we followed this really really cute guy around toysrus, and it was really fun! coz he's like so damned cute (: then ah, we saw his gf :( well, it was fun while it lasted.

AND THERE WAS THIS OTHER REALLY REALLY CUTE GUY WHO WANTED TO GIVE ME A HEART IN THE MAKE A BEAR THING. AWW SO SWEET. AND HE'S SO CUTE! omgomgomg. (: AHHH!!!!!! *pinch cheeks*
too bad that guy is like, 11 yrs younger than me. sigh.

then went with mummy and aunty mary for dinner. i feel bad lying to my bro leh, how? ohwells nvm.

SALESPEOPLE/PROMOTERS/PEOPLE ASKING FOR DONATIONS, LISTEN UP.
DO NOT. approach me or the person who's accompanying me for a little talk on your product. dont you understand how irritating it is?

god, i nearly killed the guy today.

anyway, moving on, i went out with jas ytd! haha, darling!
proness, now i get a little bit of mole concept. (:
and P and C.
and differentiation.

I NEED ALCOHOL. no it's not an addiction, it's a need.
or CHOCOLATES. or something that releases endorphins.
*cough cough cough* shrompy should know. (:

ANYWAY. I NEED A RUSH. like NOW. a dose of insanity, maybe?

(:

loves.

3 more days.
8 more days.

i cant wait.

ps, i still need a rush!

/mending the broken heart isn't easy when you're bumping barbed wires.

thanks alot ah, you muthafucker.

if you're wondering who the person is, just ask. might not be who you think it is.

thursday

ponned the LA test and went to the sick bay to sleep for 4 periods. i'll do the test on monday. there's nothing to write if you have a headache and feel hot and cold at the same time. Dr Kueh said it was symptoms of a heatbreak. ohwells. and it really sucked.

went back to class for chem and math A. chem was really funny, coz me, shimon and dacheng were sharing a com (shimon didnt bring his. and it contained all the answers, that kukuhead.) and guess what we were doing? reading news on man U and etcetc. and dacheng was like, *in chinese* "3 people on the same com makes it look like we're doing work." after that he went to hide the tookbar X) then when ms soh came and asked if we were doing work, buey tahan la! cannot stop laughing hehehe. but after 5 minutes of that madness we got down to work luh. see la so guai (:

I RAN OUT OF KISSES. =(
anyone wants to give me one? *pout*

sorry for scaring you, shrompy. (:
and sorry to the people whom i screamed at.

i have severe moodswings. dont mind me.

anws i have decided! i will quit music! i can only hope it isnt an impulsive decision due to the current unstable thinking.

I AM THE CANDYMAN
COMING FROM BOUNTYLAND
i wish that you were my lollipop
OH MY LOVE I KNOW YOU ARE MY CANDYMAN
OH MY LOVE, YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND!
you are my lollipop!
i wish that i were a bubblegum!
COME WITH ME HONEY

THIS IS THE END OF THE SWEET SUGAR CANDYMAN!

candyman by aqua rocks. (: and those were really random extracts.

gone mad! again! HAHAHA =/

Once upon a time an innocent little girl spent a long long time choosing among the frogs. Eventually she found one which she thought would turn into prince charming. She kissed it and POOF! it was someone else's prince charming. So now she's not going to waste time choosing, she's just gonna kiss the frogs who hop up to her 'cause eventually she'll get the right one. (as long as they aren't toads.)

OK IM KIDDING ABOUT THE FROGS. *ribbit* or maybe not.

it's inevitable to feel sad, but dont worry, it's going to be over soon.

it's not your fault, i never thought you would anyway. it's just me. but i must say, thanks for making it so sweet i cried. Any girl who gets you is a lucky one.(:

moral of the story: don't wear eyeliner to school when you have a feeling something's gonna go wrong.

anws today's training was pretty interesting. i couldnt be bothered to spare anymore, so if it wasnt a strike, i just used valerie's ball and threw it down the lane and maybe it'll hit something. seriously la, no mood.

went around asking people if they wanted a kiss. some people said yes, some said no, but some of the people who said yes abit the.. hahahha

if you guys thought i was kinda madly high today, it's because im not thinking straight. i can't.

Even though i'd alr knew it all along, it wont stop me from being sad yeah.

ok, now just click on the X up there and go away.

=(

it's really strange when all the people who tell you that they do care for you arent your closest family members, but your friends.

it's the same way when the people who are there for you in times of need, support in your every crazy and out-of-the-world decision that you make without doubting your capabilities or questioning you on whether the decision was because of a bad mistake from the past and lend you a listening ear when you need to bitch arent your immediate family, but your friends.

why are there so many people encouraging me, but none of them are actually my family members?

i couldnt even get thru a qn of whether i should go for dsa without getting intergorrated and accused of having seriously poor results in my current sch that made my decision.

trust me, that broke my heart. real badly.

why, when i excitedly (ok, more than excited. i was literally jumping off the roof.) called my dad to tell him i got into TA (im not that excited now, as you can see.) in sec 2, all he said was," orh. ok luh." you know, personally, i expected more than that. so much more. he even managed to sound disappointed.

why, he got more excited when he heard that my bro got posted to some neighbourhood school for heavens sake.

cant you see im doing all this shit just because of you people? if not for you guys i'd probably be one of those wrist slicing emos who do nothing but drugs. and cigs and beers. and sex too. for the entire day, ruining their worthless lives away because it is worthless. not that i dont cut; it relieves the pain inside. i just dont do the rest. (which reminds me. i gtg sterilise the penknife.)

im an attention loving bitch. and maybe im suffering right now is because im working too hard for your attn. it actually feels quite good when you boast about me; at least you rmb that you have a daughter. but then it turns into insults and gossipping about untruthful "truths" about me in which the most experienced liar would blush in shame.

you dont give a shit about me on normal days, but when it actually took a teacher to call you guys up and talk about my problems in school, your attitude just changed. you became so sickeningly sweet towards me; it was nauseating. why did it actually take a stranger (a bitch at that.) to tell you that i am changing into something that even scares myself?

guess i'll just never know. take that you never had this daughter.